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| i got a new story wanna hear? its about a girl and my fear i was scared i was alone all i wanted to do was go home i wanted to sit and lie in bed drive myself crazy in my head didnt want to eat didnt want to sleep didnt want to live just claim defeat i was sure this was it i was sad i was pissed all i had was my dreams muted thoughts muted screams i wanted to sit i wanted to get high just sit back and watch life pass by i couldnt stand to hear the phone ring i couldnt listen to them sing they all had their perfect lives the girl of their dreams by their sides i didnt care what i got i just sat home and smoked pot thats not a life thats not a way thats not how i wanted to play its fine for your but not for me i needed to get out i had to see i wanted life i wanted love i just wanted a fucking hug but no one knew no one cared i said i was fine with a glare i boiled inside redy to explode i was gonna take off off alone i thought i could find a life i thought i could find a wife so many girls didnt want me a piece of ass is all they see |
| they didnt care what was inside didnt care what i hide they only knew me as the girl at the mother fucking party i was hurting i was torn i wanted to die so they would mourn but im smarter than that im not dumb i cant die and i cant run so i figured id just wait i had me i could relate so i just sat and talked to myself then i realized i need help i couldnt do this on my own i needed someone i went home it passed the time but i still hurt i know shes out there wheres my girl? i never thought it would come that quick the only ones who wanted me had a fucking dick i met this girl she had a smile she drew me in and we talked awhile i got drunk i grew balls i wanted her i wanted it all i never thought it would last but after a week that thought passed she was perfect i didnt know why i was convinced it was a lie how could this be how in the world could this girl make me so damn happy theres somthing about her some reason i want her i still dont know how i got her she looks at me and i melt i just wish she knew how i felt shes in my head shes in my eyes i need her in my fucking life i dont need drugs i got her love she makes me forget every last part of it |
| for me she is my heroin but this drug aint a sin what she does i cant explain she digs inside inside my brain she wants to know all about me i let her in i let her see its hard for me to give my all but im slowly tearing down my wall she makes me laugh she makes me feel she lets me know that im real that someone out there is for me that someone out there does love me it dosent hurt anymore now i want life i want it more i can see kids in her eyes i can see our life i dont wanna die i want to live every day to be with her to have our way i want to yell from the roof fuck you all i have proof love is here im not blind im not crazy im not that kind we have dreams we have plans were two girls holding hands she says theres things that i dont know things that shes shared to show but thiers nothing she could say that would make me go away i love her i know i do theres nothing that we cant get through forever is how far together is what we are |