I am ready...
...to let people in. People that I talk to face to face, people that I see ona daily basis. I'm ready to talk truthfully about who I am, what I think and what I feel. To show my emotions on the outside, no matter how that effects other people.
...to not be afraid to frown. If I'm feeling down I shouldn't put on a smile for the world to see.
...to trust someone. To let people know who I am. To share my secrets with someone, not just anyone. To share my emotions, fears and even things that make me happy.
...to not push everyone away. People who get close to me, usually get pushed away after a while. For whatever reason I decide. Most times I just feel uncomfortable that they know me too well.
...to smile at myself in the mirror. Every morning when I wake up, I dread having to look in the mirror. I know what awaits me, and it usually makes me sick to my stomach. I'm ready to change that.
...to not be afriad of people. They are after all just humans like me. I can't constantly be in fear of having to talk to someone, or having to look someoen in the eye. I should look forward to seeing people, not dread it.
...to not be afriad of myself. To not feel afriad of my thoughts, my emotions, my fears or anything about me.
...to be touched. Normally, if a person touches me I feel shivers, and a general fear rush through my veins. Why, i do not know.
...to love someone. My constant complaint about being alone, is no ones fault but my own. Everytime I get close enough toa person, I push them as far away as possible, because I'm scared
...to be loved.....
i am ready, i am ready, i am ready, i am....
