I want you near me, I don't want you to touch me.
You look in my eyes and I can't run from the tears.
The world is spinning so fast but, your touch stops it all
Only for a moment so I can breathe.
You don't look at me the way I do.
You smile, I cry.
I tremble when you're not near
I cry when you are.
Maybe if you just hold me
Maybe then I won't cry, I won't be afraid.
Maybe you can teach me to smile again.
Maybe one day when you smile at me I'll smile back.

(02/30/00)