In a highstake game of poker you can't tell what card's you're gonna get, yet you have to ante up or else you don't have a chance to win. Life is like this, so is love.

How true that is (I came up with that by the way..it's mine, ALL MINE!). If you don't take the initial risk, then you can't possibly win in this game. Maybe I need to take a risk, a big risk. Then again, you should always swim the waters before you jump in, right? I don't know what I should think about this whole situation, and I'm probably not making any sense at all. I just want something I can never have. Maybe another day I'll explain, for now, I'm going to sleep and hopefully have sweet dreams. Dreams where everything works out, and everyone lives happily ever after. Dreams where nothing is overly complicated, where you can wake up and have that someone's arms wrapped around you tightly. To wake up feeling so very safe and warm.

That's the feeling I want so very badly. The feeling of warmth and safety. When you wake up in someone's arms and just lay there even though you're both awake, both not wanting to move incase you lose the closeness that you have. Tomorrow I'm going to wake up alone, and be very disappointed...