June 22

Well, well, well!!! It's finally over. I wrote my last highschool exam this afternoon. I think it went really well, but I won't tell full details like yesterday.

I'm still feeling really sad about all of this. I was emptying my locker after my exam and inside I felt kind of empty as well. Looking down the hall a all the flung open lockers like they are on the first and last few days of school. This was the last time I'd find myself in those halls as a student. I kind of stood back and stared at my wide open empty locker for a minute, probably just double checking to make sure I hadn't left anything behind, but more than likely looking for something else...as if it were a doorway to something.

I'm losing track of where everyone's going. It's sad that everyone's moving on...really it is. Even the people that I dislike are part of that sadness. I'm just feeling a need for something that I'm used to, something familiar. On that note, it's only 73 days until move out date...but who's counting.

I had a good time tonight. I think "edgar" wishes to be mentioned in here, or so it seems. He took me to a going away party for an exchange student, whom I had never met. I really did have a good time.

We ate, and talked and walked out on the dock. We took pictures, built pyramids and even sang camp songs for some reason. All I know is that I haven't laughed like that in a really long time. Infact, my side still hurts from all the laughing, and my throat tickles too. It's good to laugh, it's good to smile.

We played Mao - a card game that I hadn't played since grade nine with band students. All in all, I had a good time. After the "gathering" we barely made it back to town on gas fumes. We, edgar and I, went to timmies. I LOVE TIMMIES! After that we roamed around downtown...nothing too exciting.

Sometimes I think I'm a little too sarcastic for my own good. Sometimes I'm not sure if people can tell when I'm being sarcastic or not, in fact I know they can't tell....I think. Well, some people can't tell when I'm being sarcastic. I tried to explain, but I just felt dumb afterwards because it was misunderstood (i think). [insert scream of death here]