(sequel to I Would Be The One)
Author's Notes: Since I got such a good response from my first two song fics
I figured that you guys really didn't mind such a genre. So since I have a lot
of songs in my head that I think would fit our two leading ladies I'll just continue
to write them up till I run out of things to write about. Sort of like a
continuing song fic series but as I said these coud just be considered
individual shorts. Also since these ideas for the song fics hits sporatically I
may not continue with the 'series' for a while. Hope nobody minds too much. :)
So to get on with the show.....
Disclaimers:
1) I don't own the characters portrayed here, Paramount does. I'm only
borrowing them to give them the storylines they deserve.
2) I don't own the song 'Bent' by Matchbox 20, they do and whoever owns them.
3) This song fic portrays a lesbian theme so if that bothers you then logic
would dictate that you do not read such material.
Feedback: Yes please. Send some by my way.
Author: letterx
Pairing: T/7 :)
Genre: Song fiction
Rating: PG (sorry)
Summary: Seven and B'Elanna have admitted their feelings for each but.........
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"I can't believe the two of them! After all we did for them, they still
can't seem to get it together and just love each other." Tom complained,
yet again. He so hates it when all his hard work ends up being for nothing.
"Calm down Tom. I mean all we really did was play background band
musicians for Seven and Lanna. It was actually kinda fun to be up on stage like
that regardless of why we ended up doing it." Harry tried to reason with
his best friend. It was times like these that he wished he could have
befriended Tuvok.
"But that's the thing, Harry, what we did had a purpose. Seven first
came to us to ask us to be in this band so that she could finally admit how she
felt about Lanna to her face. The later on, Lanna asked the same thing. Each
hoped that they could then, ya know, get together. But no, Seven just had to
push B'Elanna away."
"Yeah, poor Maquis. She's heartbroken. Seven never even gave her a
reason why she did what she did. But why are we dwelling on this point
Tom?"
"Because, it's only right that we finish our job and help them get
together. Right, Chakotay?"
"Um, yeah. You're absolutely right Tom. But first, I think I need to
have a little talk with Seven. Computer, end program." Tom, Harry, the
Doc, and the halls of Voyager all vanished only to be replaced by the yellow
line of the holodeck grid.
Chakotay stood there dumbstruck. He had set out on a personal mission
several days ago to find out what had his former maquis crewmate so out of
sorts. Now he knew. From the story he was able to put together, Seven had sung
to a holographic B'Elanna Torres admitting her love for the woman. The 'real'
B'Elanna then discovered this so she in turn sung to the 'real' Seven admitting
her love for the ex-drone. All with the help of a back-up band consisting of,
himself, Tom, Harry, and the Doctor. Then Seven, for some reason, pushed away
from Lanna, hurting her more then anyone ever thought possible of the strong
half-Klingon. So being the concerned friend that he was, Chakotay had been
conducting his own little 'investigation' to try and figure out what had
occured. That's when he was lead here.
"Seven has some explaining to do." 'Never mind the illegal act of
creating holograms of real persons but she hurt Lanna. She had defintely better
have a good explaination for all this.'
And so Chakotay stomped out of the holodeck, a man on a mission.
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"Seven! We need to talk. Now!" Chakotay pushed Seven back into the
turbolift she had just exited.
"Commander?" Seven questioned with her customary raised eyebrow,
her voice calm not betraying the shock nor the sudden fear she felt at being
manhandled by what most woud describe as a kind, gentle man.
"I know about you and Lanna. Don't even try to deny it. What I want to
know now is why? Why did you break it off with her, especially without leaving
her with any sort of explanation as to why?"
"It is of no concern of your's. It is personal." Seven could feel
her anger suddenly boil towards the surface. How dare the 'commander' manhandle
her and then demand answers of her that were truly none of his buisness.
"That's where you're wrong Seven. It is my business." Chakotay
growled out through clenched teeth as he invaded Seven's personal space.
"You not only broke federation law but you hurt Lanna. You hurt her so
much so that I have never see her in so much pain. Not when she was in a
Cardassian camp, not when she had found out her father left her, not even when
she had found out that she lost almost all of her maquis friends to the
Dominion."
"Perhaps the fact that Ibroke federation law is of your concern
'Commander' but do not be mistaken. My relationship, or lack thereof, with
B'Elanna Torres is still none of your business." It was now Seven's turn
to ground out words through clenched teeth.
"Are you so cold and callus that you're not even concerned how much you
hurt B'Elanna? Perhaps everyone else was right. You're just an emotionless
ex-drone that could never love anyone let alone Torres."
"Arhhhh!" Seven screamed, no longer able to hold back her
emotions, those same emotions 'everyone' claims that she does not have. Rushing
Chakotay, Seven slammed the big man with all of her borg might in the back wall
of the turbolift. "You are wrong I do love Lanna. I do feel. I feel too
much." Just as suddenly as the anger had come, the fight drained out of
Seven just as quickly. Backing off of the wheezing man, Seven's back hit the
wall and she slumped down to the floor. "I feel afraid." It was a
whispered confession that Chakotay had just managed to catch.
"Afraid of what Seven?" The counselor's voice had calmed, no
longer did he sound angry. Chakotay knew that in order for him to get through
to Seven he'd have to provoke her into opening up. And now that he had
accomplished that, he only wanted to help Seven overcome whatever it was that
was preventing her from being with her love.
"I am afraid of many things. That I would not be adaquet for Lt.
Torres, that I am still too borg in my mannerisms, that I woud repulse her with
my borg implants, that I perhaps can not control my feelings for her, that I am
damanged beyond repair, that I am 'destined' to be alone, that I will not know
how to properly love her. I. Am. Afraid."
"But Seven, don't you realize that that is what most humans feel when
entering into a new relationship with another person? Perhaps they don't have
your specific fears but they still fear getting involved, opening up, and
allowing yourself to become vulnerable when it comes to the one you love. You
just have to be able to accept these fears and push past them. They'll never go
away, so don't even ask me how to make them go away. Even when youv'e been with
your partner for years, those fears are still there. It's a part of love that
one must accept and move on from. That is if you truly love the person you want
to be with. Cause if that's the case, I can guarantee you it'll all be worth
the few negative, uncomfortble feelings. Do you love Lanna? I mean truly love
her?"
"Yes, of course." Seven's head shot up as soon as she felt her
hands being wrapped in a second pair of hands. She never even noticed when the
Commander had moved to get close to her.
"Then, what's stopping you? You already know she loves you."
"But will she be able to accept my fears, my inadequecies? I can not be
perfect for her like she is for me."
"Seven, no one's perfect, not even Lanna. Let me finish. You may think
she's perfect but what about all her negative qualities? She's aggressive,
hot-headed, impulsive, illogical, and the list goes on. She has imperfections
just like you do but love allows us to see past those imperfections and to see
the woman beneath. I'm sure she feels the same about you. Have you even
discussed with Lanna about your fears?"
"No."
"I thought so. She might just suprise you and say that your fears are
all unfounded, which they are."
"Really?"
"Yes, really. And I think I have the perfect way to go about testing my
theory. We're going to ask Lanna exactly what she thinks of all your
fears."
And so Chakotay pulled Seven to her feet, ordering the turbolift to unseal
the doors, and walked out, all before Seven could possibly voice an objection.
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Back on the holodeck, in the same bar/stage program Seven had set up to sing
to her love, there she was again getting ready to sing yet again. Peaking out
through the curtains, Seven saw that the holodeck was filled to the rim of
feelow crewmembers all talking amoungst themselves just waiting for this
special show to begin. The middle table lay empty, specially reserved for
someone special.
And just as Seven looked from table to holodeck door, in walks that someone
special, albiet reluctantly, but thank whomever that she was being excorted in
by Captain Janeway. Both ladies sat at the middle table just as Seven got a tap
on the shoulder from one Tom Paris.
"Okay, Seven, we're ready to begin whenever you are."
"Mr. Paris." Seven called the retreating helmsman back. "I
wished to thank you for suggesting the song we are about to perform. It fits
what I am feeling very well and if it wasn't for your suggestion then I might
not be able to express myself so true to nature. Thank you."
"Ah, well, you're welcome Seven. I just want to see Lanna happy. And
for some strange reaso you make her happy. Now what do you say we get this show
on the road?"
"Indeed."
After quite a long-winded introduction for the group and each of it's
members, Neelix finally got around to saying, "And now the Voyager Crew's
Band."
The lights dimmed and the curtain rose. The electric guitar, played by Paris
himself, roared to life playing an intro to the song. Seven steped up to the
microphone, lowered eyes and began to sing what she couldn't say.
And if I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk
And if I need some other loving
Give me more then I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then just hold me again
Seven pleaded to her love knowing that she'll never be perfect but hoping
that Lanna would still wan to be with her no matter what. Looking up and
directly into the eyes of her love she continued on with the song.
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never get put back together
Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will live with you and me bent
Seven confessed to all in the room, but first and foremost her love, how she
saw herself. Bent.
And if I couldn't sleep could you sing
Could you paint me better off
And could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot
The ex-drone did something no one ever thought was possible, she asked for
help, understanding, and comfort.
I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just folding it in Just breaking my skin
B'Elanna ached for the woman on stage, here she was admitting not only that she
had been hurt beyond measure in the past but that she wasn't perfect and
impervious, instead she was afraid of getting hurt again. 'How could I have
ever doubted her love for me?'
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never get put back together
Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will live with you and me bent
And Paris strung the guitar while Seven closed her eyes, letting all of her
emotions, her fear, her love show through.
Start bending me It's never enough
Till I feel all your pieces
Start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in
Seven pelted out that last line as her head was thrown back completely
caught up in the motions of what she felt.
It shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then just touch me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never get put back together
Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will live
With you and me living without understanding
And I'll go there again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll ever get put back together
Yeah, you're breaking me in
And this is how we will live
With you and me......
Bent
Seven finished the song with tears in her eyes. Looking desperately to the
woman she loved for acceptance, to wash away all those fears she had.
B'Elanna slowly got up from her chair amist the thunderous applause from the
crowd and made her way to the stage. She held out her arm and was immediately
lifted up onto the stage by Seven.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Lanna whispered even though the crowd was
still making so much noise. Thanks to Seven's enhanced hearing, she knew the
woman would hear he question.
"I was.... afraid." Lanna unfortunately didn't have the luxury of
enhance hearing so Seven had to lean down and whisper in the engineer's ear.
"You should have been. I love you and that's all there is to it. I love
YOU Seven of Nine, all of you, faults and imperfections galore."
"And I love you B'Elanna Torres. I promise I shall never run away from
that love again, fears 'be damned'." Lanna smirked at Seven's little
curse, which sounded all too cute coming fom her. Then she leaned in for a
smoldering kiss from the woman whose arms she was now in. But that only brought
more of a thunderous roar from the crowd, now including hooting and holloring.
So with a roll of her eyes, Lanna called for the computer to shut down the
holodeck program. Except after the bar and stage disppeared, the noise still
remained. Looking around she now saw disgruntled crewmembers who were obviously
not ready for the show (or program) to end.
"I thought only Janeway knew and that she was in on helping you to
seduce me again." Torres said with wide eyes of disbelief.
"No B'Elanna, I not only wished to show you how I felt but all the rest
of the crew. I love you and I deeply regret any pain I may have caused
you."
"Mmm, and I know just how you can make it up to me. Let's go. Computer,
Exit."
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The End
Some after notes: Sorr if some of the lyrics are incorrect to those who
really know the song. I was only able to copy down the lyrics after listening
to the song and there were some iffy parts I was unsure of. Well that's it.
Hope you enjoyed.