Part
I
by
RebelGirl
Inspired
by a challenge issued by Voyooho in Voq Je Bang, the rules of which are
displayed just prior to the start of Part I, I must therefore dedicated this to
Voyooho and thank her for firing my muse.
I
also need to thank my betas Arcanum and Anaglyph, without whom, all this would
be far poorer and quite littered with mistakes - thanks for the support.
Disclaimers:-
The characters belong to Paramount unfortunately - wasted opportunities!
Pairing:
B'Elanna/Seven
Feedback:
Yes please - I wouldn't post it if I didn't want it. [email protected]
Archive:
Perfect Misfits is a given, anyone else, please ask.
Rules
of the Challenge:-
1.
B'Elanna has to actively seduce an unwilling Seven.
2. Seven has to be involved in a relationship with someone other then Janeway.
3. Has to have at least PG-13 content, for the same reason as wyld's
challenge.
4. Must find some way to deal with cortical node booby trap besides ignoring
it.
The
story is T/7. Rating will be NC17.
Comments
to [email protected]
B'Elanna
Torres curled her fingers round the hot cup of coffee and took a deep sip,
surveying the Mess Hall from over the rim of the black and silver cup. She
could feel the moist heat steam onto her face from the cup even as the cup
warmed her fingers and hands. From her vantage point near one of the large
windows in the hall, she could watch the occupants unnoticed, or more
particularly, watch for one occupant.
B'Elanna
had finally found enough Klingon honour and courage to be honest with herself
about her feelings for the ex-drone. As her love for helmsman Tom Paris had
dwindled, her attention had focused on Seven of Nine and how she felt whenever
they crossed paths. Their confrontations were legendary. Recently though, they
had been far less frequent as the Chief Engineer had taught herself not to
react to the actions of the tall blonde in the same hot-headed manner. She felt
sure that Seven of Nine deliberately provoked her in order to get a response.
As she continued to analyse that she came to wonder if the borg was doing it to
be irritating or because she craved the same feelings as B'Elanna from the
interaction.
B'Elanna
could no longer deny was that she was totally head over heels in love with
Seven. Her hearts would race when she felt her presence. Her pupils would
dilate, trying to take in as much light as possible so that she could admire
the tall, curvaceous body, the swell of her breasts and sway of her hips as she
moved. Before conversing with Seven, she would fight to get her breathing under
control and her skin felt hypersensitive when she was so close to her, yet
unable to touch her.
Her
stomachs lurched as the object of her desire walked through the doors and up to
the counter. B'Elanna was too far away to hear any conversation between Seven
and Neelix, but she could admire how she gracefully nodded her head as Neelix
said something that met her approval.
Seven
turned and she smiled, her face lighting up as she detected the instigator of
the smile. B'Elanna thought her hearts would give out completely as Seven
approached her, but just as suddenly wished that they would when Seven sat down
at a table opposite the provocateur of her smile. B'Elanna closed her eyes
briefly - trying to block out the image - but it was too late. It seemed burnt
onto her retinas. Seven had sat down across from Thomas Eugene Paris.
Tom
rose to brush his lips lightly across Seven's cheek. "Hi Seven, bang on
time," he smiled warmly at her.
"You
are incorrect, Tom. I am 3.45 minutes late. I needed to speak with Mr Neelix to
request his help with the Borg children while I am occupied on our…" she
paused slightly, searching for the right word.
"Date?"
Tom offered.
Seven
nodded.
Tom
sat back and grinned. "You're gonna love it Seven, I've put a lot of work
into this holo-program." He described the program animatedly until Seven
stopped him with a quirked eyebrow.
"If
you describe the whole program to me, it will hardly seem worthwhile taking
part in it," she reminded him.
"As
long as I'm with you anything seems worthwhile," replied Tom, but he took
the hint and changed the subject.
Due
to the proximity of her table, B'Elanna had managed to hear every word of Tom's
plans. Every smile or look he shared with Seven cut deeply into her. She felt
shocked by the intensity of her emotions. Not wishing to inflict further
torture on herself, B'Elanna stood up, pushing her chair away with the backs of
her legs and returned her cup to the replicator, retreating back towards her
safe environment of engineering.
Seven
glanced up and acknowledged B'Elanna's passing them with a nod. She felt
somewhat uncomfortable in starting up a relationship with Tom, as she knew she
would have to work closely with Lt. Torres but so far the half- Klingon had
done nothing to indicate that she was unhappy about their relationship. Come to
think of it, B'Elanna had done nothing to indicate her approval either but
Seven felt that at least open hostility had been avoided. Tom was easy company
and had been one of the first crewmembers to extend his friendship to her when
she had first came aboard Voyager. At the time he had been involved with the
Chief Engineer but as Tom had explained, the two had drifted apart.
The
one link that had held them together had been B'Elanna's pregnancy but since
the accident in Engineering that had forced her to miscarry, Tom had admitted
to B'Elanna that he no longer harboured the same feelings. They remained
friends and they had supported each other through their loss but now it was
time to move on.
Seven
felt that the sandy haired helmsman was a suitable candidate for a first
relationship, having researched the subject thoroughly. She felt comfortable in
his presence and was relaxed enough to practise "small talk" and
other inanities on him without feeling insecure. Her biggest problem was
B'Elanna though.
After
discovering that she had a cortical inhibitor that would never allow her to
feel strong emotions like love, she had approached the Doctor and asked for
advice. Seven had balked at the idea of extensive surgery that may or may not
work and had covertly continued to research her problem. She now believed that
she had a solution but it was one that would involve a great deal of
involvement from the Chief Engineer. Seven was confident that B'Elanna would be
willing to help under normal circumstances but was unsure that she would assist
Seven in feeling love for Tom Paris.
The
helmsman dragged her back to the present with a touch from his hand. "Hey,
I lost you there for a moment", he grinned at her, but did not remove his
hand from Seven's.
"I
apologise, Tom. A matter personal in nature distracted me," she explained
hesitantly and then stood up abruptly. "If you are ready to proceed, shall
we go to the holodeck?"
*
* *
B'Elanna
was lying on the floor underneath the warp core muttering a whole host of
klingon and human curses and in many cases, a mixture of the two as she tried
to isolate the power fluctuation that was causing Voyager to drop out of warp
without warning. It had taken her the better part of the shift to narrow it
down to just one portion of the bio-neural circuitry but she was almost there
now. As she reached, without looking, for her tricorder, her hand brushed
across a boot, drawing B'Elanna out. Her eyes travelled hungrily up the boot
owner's legs and over her torso before coming to a halt as she gazed into wide
clear blue eyes.
"Can
I be of assistance?" Seven asked, quirking the metallic implant above her
eye questioningly.
Torres
fought to regain control of her senses as she greedily absorbed as much of
Seven as she could - from the look of her to her smell. She even sounded
gorgeous and the small brunette wondered for a microsecond how Seven's voice
would sound if she were crying B'Elanna's name aloud in passion.
She
forced her brain to concentrate and eventually worked her dry mouth into
answering. "If you'd been here a while ago I'd have said yes but I think
it's done now". The engineer grabbed her tricorder and ducked back under,
using her continued work as an excuse to hide her flushed face from the
statuesque blonde.
"Then
when you have finished, could I discuss a project with you?" Seven spoke
slightly louder to combat the physical barrier separating their faces.
"Sure,
Seven. But my shift finishes soon. Can we discuss it over dinner?"
B'Elanna's muffled tones came from underneath where she was working. Somehow,
B'Elanna had found it easier to ask Seven to dinner when she wasn't facing her.
"I
do not require nutritional supplements.."
"At
this time, yeah I know," finished B'Elanna. "Well I do and I can't
think straight on an empty stomach".
Seven
opened her mouth to question B'Elanna again when the Chief Engineer interrupted
her.
"If
you ask how my having an empty stomach interferes with my thinking process, I
won't help you".
Wondering
how the lieutenant could have anticipated her when she could not even see her,
Seven merely looked at where she approximated the half klingon's head to be and
asked, "Would 19:00 hours be convenient for you?"
After
receiving an affirmative, Seven stared at the half-hidden body of Lieutenant
Torres for a moment. She felt certain that the woman was smiling under the
panel. Seven spun on her heel and wondered again at the complexity of B'Elanna
Torres. She headed to find Tom and tell him that she would not be available to
see him tonight.
*
* *
Seven
looked on in amazement as she watched B'Elanna busily tuck into a huge portion
of Neelix's latest creation while barely pausing to breathe.
"You
must have an extremely high metabolic rate, Lieutenant", she stated
blandly.
B'Elanna's
fork paused halfway on its journey to her mouth and she grinned wryly.
"That's what being part klingon does to you, I think", she responded
cheerily before adding, "and being Chief Engineer I barely get a chance to
sit down, so I use up a lot of energy." She finished her forkful before
speaking again. "So what is this project then Seven?"
Seven
studied her wordlessly for a while before sliding a data padd across the small
table towards B'Elanna silently.
B'Elanna
paused slightly before picking the pad up. She wasn't certain but she felt sure
that she'd seen worry, if not fear, pass fleetingly over Seven's exquisite
features. Wondering why a project would cause her distress she reached out and
examined the padd. Seven saw B'Elanna look confused briefly and was about to
explain the whole concept when she was stopped by B'Elanna's raised hand. The
olive skinned woman sat and studied the padd for several moments, totally
absorbed in the information that had been submitted, her dinner completely
forgotten. Seven merely waited, trying to read her expressive face as she dealt
with each concept. Finally, B'Elanna looked up, sat back in her chair and
exhaled audibly.
"Have
you told the captain about this?" asked Torres.
Seven
had anticipated the question but did was surprised that it was the first thing
B'Elanna asked. "I did not want to approach the captain until I spoke with
you. I believe that you are the only member of this crew able to assist me in
this."
"I'm
not sure I can help you Seven," B'Elanna began.
Seven
fought off a wave of disappointment and regret, wondering if the Chief Engineer
would not help because of Seven's relationship with Tom. Her worry proved
unfounded as B'Elanna continued though.
"I
don't know if I understand borg nano-circuitry well enough to make the
modifications".
Seven
released a breath she failed to realise she had been holding. "Lieutenant,
you are the most skilful engineer on this ship. Your talents are legendary
amongst your staff. You also possess phenomenal ingenuity and improvisational
skills."
"Are
you sure you are not Borg?" Seven asked suddenly, startling B'Elanna until
she realised that Seven was actually joking.
"Quite
sure," she grinned openly at the jest and Seven continued.
"I
am unsure if this procedure will work, regardless of how much data I collate.
However I am willing to attempt this rather than a medical operation that has
poor odds at best for success; but only if you are prepared to work with
someone you have a deep dislike for, Lieutenant." Seven hid none of the
sadness she felt over this. Of all the people on board Voyager, B'Elanna was
probably closest to her equal in intelligence and strength. Seven had just
never been able to break through and actually become friends with the compact
brunette.
B'Elanna
stared at the beautiful blonde sitting opposite and wondered how Seven could
have no perception of the feelings that were radiating from her. B'Elanna would
happily die for Seven at this moment. A chance to foil the cortical inhibitor
and release her deepest inner emotions, with the faint hope that they might one
day be directed toward her, could not be forsaken. Simultaneously, she felt her
hearts lurch as she realised that Seven needed her both as an engineer and as a
friend.
She
fought to keep her voice under control as she answered. "Then what I
suggest we do is gather as much data as possible, rig out a few tests and then
present the final findings to the captain. There's no point bringing this to
her attention unless we're absolutely confident that we can be
successful."
B'Elanna
was warming to this challenge as every second passed and her mind was already
racing ahead and working out duty schedules to get maximum time on the project.
Seven
found herself comforted by the fact that B'Elanna had used the term 'we'. She
knew now that the half-Klingon was sold on the idea and she would help Seven.
Perhaps she had at last found a way through the volatile woman's defences.
There had been no mention of how the result would affect either of them, and
for that Seven was grateful. She could detect B'Elanna's rise in body
temperature, pulse and breathing but reasoned that those reactions were in
response to the project that had been laid before her. For the first time since
she had discovered the terrible secret of the cortical inhibitor, Seven felt
hope again.
Part 2
B'Elanna
Torres worked almost continually on the project for the next two weeks. Every
spare moment not taken by Engineering had her pondering over bio-neural
circuitry, gel-pack design and electrical transference data. Most of the work
was done in the holodeck to minimise the damage to parts Voyager could ill
afford to lose.
It
was also time shared with Seven of Nine. Seven worked closely alongside
B'Elanna, often explaining the finer aspects of Borg design and technology and
how it could be related to Federation or, more often, Federation-B'Elanna
Torres' hybrid technology. They would extrapolate data and conclusions
together, bouncing ideas and solutions off each other, making rapid
advancements.
Tom,
who felt neglected and ignored for the second time in two relationships, would
interrupt them frequently during their work. Seven would take her leave on
occasion in order to spend time with him but found the intrusion on their work
schedule frustrating, particularly if Tom used a ruse to extract her from the
holodeck.
She
found herself voicing her feelings to B'Elanna one afternoon after Tom had
pried her from the holodeck on the pretence that Mizati was ill - only to
discover that she was perfectly well but he had arranged a candle lit dinner
for them to share in his quarters. He then accused her of selfishness when she
failed to warm to his surprise. It was their first argument.
"I
told him that his behaviour was irrational and childish," Seven confided
to the half-Klingon and looked sharply at her when she heard a barely
restrained snort of laughter from the Chief Engineer. "I do not understand
how this can be funny, B'Elanna", she admonished.
To
the small brunette's surprise, Seven pouted, causing her to throw her head back
and laugh unreservedly. B'Elanna regained her composure quickly though and
hurried to explain her reaction. "Seven, the first time Tom and I argued I
used exactly the same words as you. He must have a sinking feeling of déjà vu
now."
Seven's
face lit up in understanding and she grinned openly at B'Elanna. "That
would explain his actions directly after I uttered those words", she
stated, prompting B'Elanna to collapse into laughter again.
"Don't
tell me," she begged, gasping for breath, wiping away an errant tear, as
she fought to regain control again. Eventually, a semblance of decorum was
restored and B'Elanna leant against the workstation, arms folded and faced
Seven. "So how do you feel about quarrelling with Tom then?" she
asked softly.
Seven
faltered slightly before answering. "I am unsure. I am still irritated by
his actions so logically it has solved nothing, but I do nor regret my words,
as I felt that my displeasure needed to be expressed. However I may have, I
think the expression is, 'dented his ego' somewhat. I could have chosen less
pointed adjectives", she reasoned objectively.
"Okay",
replied B'Elanna slowly, "that's the clinical dissection of the argument.
How do you actually feel about what happened?" she pursued doggedly.
Seven
opened her mouth to reply and then stopped, looking at B'Elanna miserably.
"I have no feelings over the events at all B'Elanna. Perhaps it is the
cortical inhibitor preventing me from getting emotional over this."
"It
could be," the smaller woman nodded. "But it may be that you just
haven't developed deep enough feelings towards Tom to care," she
articulated quietly. B'Elanna tried desperately to stop her mind from racing.
She couldn't believe she had just voiced her opinion like that. She knew her
heart was crazily hoping that Seven didn't have any sort of feelings for Tom
but it was dishonourable to chase someone already committed in a relationship.
She could hear her heart chastising her brain - aware of the irony in allowing
her Klingon honour to guide her actions when she had for so long denied her
heritage.
Seven
allowed herself a few moments to consider B'Elanna's point. "Am I ever
likely to develop those feelings though? With anyone, not just Tom?" she
wondered aloud.
B'Elanna
closed her eyes briefly to combat the pinprick of tears she felt begin and
swallowed. "I hope so Seven, I truly do. Let's see if we can get any
further with the gel packs", she suggested with a lighter voice, changing
the subject to one more comfortable for the pair of them. Seven acknowledged
her agreement by nodding her head curtly and B'Elanna swung her body round,
examining the workstation carefully.
The
two women continued their experiments, methodically overcoming each problem
that emerged during their research. When not discussing hypotheses, they worked
in a companionable silence, making extraordinary progress.
The
chime of the holodeck door broke one of these silences. "Come in",
B'Elanna yelled, without even looking up. The swish of the doors was followed
by a soft footfall.
"I
came to apologise, Seven".
Both
women spun round to see Tom Paris holding a huge bouquet of orchids, wearing
his most sincere smile. B'Elanna felt like she wanted to rip his heart out and
eat it raw but she remained silent as Seven approached Tom and took the
bouquet.
"Thank
you Tom. I am unsure what to do with these flowers but I do understand that
they are a symbol of reconciliation", she spoke gently.
"Thank
you, Seven," Tom replied and put his arms round her and hugged her. B'Elanna
turned back to her work, not wishing to see any more.
"Would
you please have dinner with me?" Tom asked pleadingly. He hurriedly
qualified his question. "No deception or ruse, just you and I sharing
dinner in the mess hall."
Seven
glanced at B'Elanna, hunched over a gel pack, prodding furiously at her data
padd and then looked back at Tom. "Yes Tom, but this is a very special
project to me. Please understand that I want to return to it after we
finish."
Tom,
knowing that it was best to quit while he was ahead, agreed willingly.
"Sure thing, just don't bolt your food". He linked his arm in Seven's
and escorted her out of the holodeck.
B'Elanna
refused to glance at them as they left, instead allowing a solitary tear to
trickle hotly down her cheek before sniffing angrily and cuffing it away.
Feeling
that her emotions had taken enough for one day, the diminutive engineer
continued alone. As soon as she saw Seven's data she had realised that the idea
was ingenious, however the more she delved into its nuances, the more she
realised how radical Seven's solution was. The basic principle was to replace
the borg nano-circuitry from around the cortical inhibitor with bio-neural
circuitry from a gel-pack, substitute their functions and then safely remove the
inhibitor. The bio-neural circuitry to continue functioning and fool Seven's
borg systems into thinking that it was still present.
The
largest of the many snags that they had to overcome was the adaptivity of Borg
technology. Despite exhaustive analysis, B'Elanna could still not find a way to
adapt the bio-neural circuitry into Seven's systems faster than the nanoprobes
could detect and reject it.
"Unless…"
she spoke aloud, despite being alone. Suddenly, B'Elanna's brilliant mind
kicked into overdrive as a glimmer of an idea formed within its recesses.
Within seconds she was totally engrossed in performing a mass of rapid
calculations and tests that took her deep into the gamma shift.
*
* *
Seven
lay in Tom's bed watching his face as he slept and wondered if she could ever
really feel passion. She had studied the helmsman's face as he had lain on top
of her and examined her face with his fingers, before kissing her gently. She
scrutinised him as his passion mounted and he kissed her harder, moving to her
breasts, kissing one and massaging the other.
She
felt his erection on her thigh before he swivelled his hips slightly, rubbing
the tip along her vagina several times before finally adjusting his position
and entering her slowly. He paused, looking triumphantly into her eyes as he
began thrusting into her, his breathing becoming rapid. She had felt her own
body respond physically to the attention. Her heart rate increased and she
undulated with him. His cry as he came was euphoric and he collapsed across her
in ecstatic exhaustion … but as he climaxed, she felt strangely detached from
the whole experience, as if she were watching from outside her body.
She
sighed quietly as she adjusted position slightly, gently pushing Tom away from
her arm so she could restore circulation. Her bewilderment continued as she
realised that her thoughts could not remain focused on the sandy haired pilot
for long. Instead, she found herself examining the relationship she had with
B'Elanna Torres. If ever passion and feeling could be made into a person,
surely it would be someone like B'Elanna. Nothing she did was done with
anything less than total commitment, so much so that she could easily become
obsessed with tasks. Seven recalled how she had zealously worked on their project
in the holodeck and how animated she was as she formulated ideas and solved
problems.
Seven
sat bolt upright, ignoring Tom's mumbled annoyance at being disturbed from his
resting-place. She had meant to return to the holodeck to continue with
B'Elanna when Tom had convinced her to return to his quarters. Caught up in his
excitement and her own curiosity, he had moved her into the bedroom. She
couldn't think of their time together as 'making love', as she felt so
emotionless about it all but she supposed that must have been what they had
done. Before Tom had drifted off to sleep he had muttered that everything would
be fine once her emotions were released.
Perhaps
he was right but Seven was not so sure. However, staying here would not assist
B'Elanna so she swung her legs to the edge of the bed and scanned the room for
her clothing.
"What'cha
doin'?" Tom slurred sleepily. Seven looked down at him and answered,
"I need to assist Lieutenant Torres."
"She's
probably in bed asleep right now honey, which is where you should be. Start
again in the morning, Seven." He shifted slightly and patted the bed; his
eyes still closed. "Lie down, you're letting cold air in".
Seven
elected to stand and move away from the bed. "I am sorry Tom, but I need
to do this." Tom failed to answer having drifted back to sleep again. She
stared at his still form briefly before retrieving her body suit and slipping
quietly out of the helmsman's quarters.
The
doors to the holodeck hissed open allowing Seven to enter. She studied her
colleague's face for a while. It was the first time the ex-drone had seen a
look of real peace on the dynamic engineer's visage and the young woman was
taken aback with her beauty.
"B'Elanna."
She spoke softly to wake B'Elanna gently and then had to bite her lip to stop
grinning as the half Klingon sat up with a jolt, scattering the data padds
around her comically, the serenity being wiped from her face to be replaced by
a look of guilty confusion.
"I
think you may find it more comfortable to sleep in your own quarters,"
Seven suggested gently, allowing B'Elanna a little more time to compose
herself.
"What
time is it?" B'Elanna rubbed her eyes roughly, trying to stimulate her
senses.
"By
the ship's chronometer, 0300 hours. I believe you need to take a break."
Seven continued to keep her voice low, though she was unsure why.
B'Elanna,
senses fully recovered, looked carefully at Seven. Her heightened Klingon
senses could smell Tom's scent on her and Seven's slightly dishevelled
appearance confirmed her worst fears. She felt totally at odds with herself.
Emotionally, she didn't think she could stand to be so close to Seven, knowing
she was unattainable. Her keen engineering mind however, craved the opportunity
to continue working with Seven and see the project through to conclusion. She
decided to take the coward's way out and put her mind on hold and nodded
acquiescence.
Seven
found herself escorting B'Elanna back to her quarters. She wondered why
B'Elanna did not mention her late arrival but she did not voice her query.
There was an easy silence between them as they strode through the dimly lit
corridors, giving the women an artificial sense of the lateness of the hour.
When
they reached their destination, B'Elanna stopped and punched her access code,
permitting the doors to open. She looked up into Seven's eyes and smiled
mischievously. "I know how to beat the nano-probes," she stated
quickly, before stepping through the doors.
Seven
remained motionless as the doors swished shut and her mind reeled. She was torn
between knocking on the door and discussing B'Elanna's discovery, and letting
the exhausted engineer sleep. She also suspected that the raven-haired woman
had deliberated revealed the information as a parting shot to cause turmoil in
Seven, though to what end, Seven had no idea.
Grinding
on her heel in frustration, she turned and headed back to Cargo Bay 2, not
wishing to disturb Tom again tonight.
Part 3
"I will not allow you to put yourself in danger, Lieutenant." Seven's
voice increased in volume as she paced the floor angrily in the Briefing Room.
Captain
Janeway glanced at Seven's agitated movement before turning to gaze steadily at
B'Elanna. "I'm not sure I can allow it either", she told her Chief
Engineer.
Instead
of exploding, B'Elanna leant back in her chair and sighed though inwardly she
was seething. She and Seven had approached the captain after the senior staff
briefing to explain their project. Janeway's interest had been piqued by the
ingenuity and the sheer science of it all and had briefly yearned to return to
her science officer origins. B'Elanna waited till the end to reveal how she
could beat the nanoprobe problem. In order to program the bio-neural circuitry
quickly enough, B'Elanna proposed to connect herself directly with the
circuitry controlling the gel-packs using a bio- neural link. Seconds would be
shaved off the installation of the circuitry and any challenges the nanoprobes
attempted could be combated as they happened rather than as a reaction to their
effects. After running a series of simulations last night, B'Elanna was
confident she could do the procedure. However, a direct link to bio-neural
circuitry was against Federation law and held inherent dangers.
"Using
a link to combat potentially aggressive nanoprobes could be suicidal."
Seven broke her stride to argue. "I am grateful for your assistance in
this project but there must be another way to proceed with the
programming", she insisted and looked imploringly at the Captain, hands
clasped behind her back in a familiar pose.
"Before
you both write this suggestion off, would you please allow me to work with the
Doctor and see if we can make the link safer? He may be able to assist",
proposed B'Elanna calmly, privately thanking Tuvok for all the meditation
lessons. Even if she was fighting turmoil within, she could at least now project
a slightly calmer aura. Her comment and the manner in which she expressed
herself stunned both the Captain and Seven. Janeway looked at the klingon
hybrid and made another evaluation. She so desperately wanted Seven to be able
to experience complete humanity but that was never going to happen unless a
drastic course of action was undertaken.
The
Captain paused for a moment, picking her words carefully. "If you and the
Doctor can work out a safer way to do this then you have my support", she
offered and held up a hand to silence the outburst from Seven before it even
started. "Whether Seven chooses to accept the procedure is up to
her." The Captain looked at Seven intently and waited. B'Elanna refused to
look at the ex- drone, not wanting to intimidate her into an answer.
Seven
was confused about the whole issue. She wasn't sure that achieving complete
humanity was worth the risk to B'Elanna. She was uncertain as to when her
feelings toward the Chief Engineer had changed from superior indifference to
genuine affection but she knew with absolute certainty that those feelings were
totally authentic and not just a temporary emotion brought on by the proximity
they had shared whilst working on her project. She did not want to do anything
to jeopardise B'Elanna's safety. She also realised that, had the tables been
turned, she would be the first to offer her services to help her friend
regardless of risk, and Seven did not like the idea of being a hypocrite.
"I will only consider this if the Doctor agrees to the procedure",
she stated, her tone indicating that this was strictly non-negotiable.
It
was enough for B'Elanna and she sprang from her chair, a look of happy
determination etched across her features. "Captain, would it be acceptable
to work on this now? I have Vorik in charge of Engineering. Naturally, if our
current situation changes I'll head straight back there." She paused to
draw breath and the Captain took the opportunity to interject quickly.
"If
you'd approached me earlier, you wouldn't have had to spend all last week
working into the early hours", she admonished gently. "As it is, I
see no problem in releasing you to this full time, on the provisos you've
already expressed obviously." Janeway allowed herself to smile at the
woman's enthusiasm as B'Elanna hastened from the Briefing Room. "I'm glad
you and B'Elanna have overcome your differences", she confided in the
young ex drone.
Seven
smiled shyly. "So am I Captain", she agreed readily. Seven seemed
about to say something more but changed her mind. "Captain, if I am not
required in Astrometrics, I would like to assist B'Elanna".
Janeway
nodded and Seven turned briskly, barely pausing for the doors to slide open
before leaving. The Captain returned to her chair for a moment and took a deep
draught from her coffee cup that had been neglected during the meeting. She
grimaced as the bitter liquid touched her lips. It had gone cold but she
swallowed the dark beverage down quickly and appeased her craving. She studied
one of her data padd reports for a moment before her mind drifted back a few
minutes. Janeway did not know how the ex- borg would react to the release of
all her emotions. She had a dread feeling that it would be a bumpy ride for the
young woman and the rest of the crew as she adjusted. At the same time, if the
cortical inhibitor could not be removed, it might affect Seven just as deeply.
Seven needed her friendship and guidance more than ever yet she had not
confided in her at all. Janeway felt an illogical stab of jealousy directed at
her Chief of Engineering and shoved it back to the recess of her mind
hurriedly. If the ship's grapevine was correct, Seven was dating Tom Paris.
Janeway wasn't sure that was wise either but she was confident that there would
be no future in it. Once Seven had her first relationship out of the way,
Janeway would slowly reveal her interest and finally show Seven the love she so
truly deserved. Janeway was alarmed as her libido soared at that final thought.
She gulped down the last dregs from her black and silver cup before returning
the receptacle to the replicator. Fortunately the strong taste of cold coffee
had the desired effect and she entered the Bridge fully focused on the
day-to-day running of Voyager.
*
* *
For
the next few hours the EMH joined B'Elanna and Seven on the holodeck to examine
their proposal carefully. Once he got to grips with the concept, he was keen to
assist in any way he could, though he felt somewhat aggrieved that Seven had
chosen to pursue a different way of getting round the inhibitor without
consulting him. He understood the principle of linking B'Elanna up to the
bio-neural circuitry but had serious doubts that it could ever be totally safe.
"Mr
Paris' involvement with 'Alice' should give you warning enough to not try and
do this B'Elanna", he cautioned.
"I
remember Doc, I was there", the petite engineer reminded him. "But
the information we gained from that may help us come up with a buffer for me,
or at least some sort of safety net so that the risk to me isn't
unacceptable". She pulled a face as she spoke the last words, causing
Seven to break out into a wide grin and release the tension that had been
building between them ever since B'Elanna had first approached the Captain. Her
brown eyes sparkled as she returned the smile good-naturedly and there was a
tacit understanding between the two women that things were back to normal. The
Doctor coughed to regain their attention.
"So
how do you propose to put a buffer between the circuitry and your brain without
slowing down data transference?" he asked, getting to the crux of the
matter.
"Well
that's where you come in, Doc", the engineer informed him, her dark brown
eyes sparkling as she tossed yet another data padd towards him. The Doctor frowned
darkly but scrutinised the padd carefully. Seven ran her fingers gracefully
over her workstation and viewed the same information that the Doctor had been
given by the Chief Engineer. She lifted her enhanced eyebrow in surprise at the
information on the padd and stared at B'Elanna intently.
"I
would never have made this sort of inspirational leap between theories. I
believe your staff and I have underestimated your abilities", she stated
sincerely.
B'Elanna
felt herself blush at the compliment so quickly brushed it off defensively.
"It was just a hunch, Seven. I just tend to get lucky with them". She
looked away as she saw Seven still studying her.
"Thank
you, B'Elanna", she stated simply, her voice barely audible, as she
realised just how much effort and time B'Elanna had put in.
"We're
not there yet, remember?" she reminded the beautiful ex drone gently.
"I'm not allowed to do this if we don't get the odds down". Seven
bobbed her head in agreement and began punching up more data. B'Elanna turned to
her own console, her heart pounding furiously. She'd spent more time with Seven
in the last week than she had for years and yet she still couldn't tell her how
she really felt about her. So much for facing up to her feelings, she thought
bitterly, clenching her fists reflexively to manage the anger that she directed
inward. The dark engineer then chastised herself for once again forgetting
Seven's involvement with Tom. Her feelings would have to remain hidden. Slowly,
she uncurled her fingers, using the action to release the tension her fury had
built up inside her and enabling her to direct her energies more profitably
towards the task at hand.
*
* *
B'Elanna
sat at a workstation in the sickbay resting her chin on the backs of her hands
as her elbows were propped on its edge. She and the Doctor had moved there when
Seven excused herself to have dinner with Tom. The young blonde had felt guilty
in leaving him last night and thought it would be a good idea to spend some
time with him this evening. She had wanted B'Elanna to join her but felt it
would be insensitive to ask her to share dinner with an ex-lover and his new
girlfriend. The EMH had suggested it instead, not realising his faux pas until
he was skewered by one of B'Elanna's fiercest stares. Once Seven had departed,
B'Elanna had suggested moving to the Doctor's 'home environment', so to speak,
and continuing. Unfortunately, they were now at deadlock.
She
fixed the Emergency Medical Hologram with a stare so hard he convinced himself
that he felt uncomfortable. "It doesn't matter how you look at me
Lieutenant, the figures can't be changed", he told her definitively,
though there was a hint of nervousness about him that the klingon couldn't fail
to detect.
She
sighed deeply, almost growling, before speaking. "Shall we look at this
from a medical point of view as opposed to a technical one then?" she
suggested.
The
Doctor appeared to take umbrage at this suggestion. "I have already
researched the matter and given Seven her options as far as medical surgery is
concerned. She chose not to take me up on my idea", he replied somewhat
haughtily.
B'Elanna
closed her eyes for a long moment and the Doctor had the distinct impression
she was counting to ten. When she opened them again she pinned the EMH with
another stare. "Well how about you look at how you can adapt my
idea?" she asked. "I would have thought you wouldn't care who
suggested what as long as she gets a chance to fulfil her humanity", she
added pointedly, her humourless smile chilling the words further.
The
Doctor, suitably chastised, sniffed unnecessarily before bringing up some more
data on one of the larger screens. "Perhaps I need to look at this from a
different perspective", he suggested to himself and began to make some
rapid calculations. B'Elanna smiled at his back, accepting his unspoken apology
before returning to her own console.
Four
hours later, they sat across from each other and smiled. They hadn't eliminated
the risk, but by using the Doctor's holographic matrix the feedback from the bio-neural
circuitry could be contained and the borg nanoprobes would be slowed down too -
an added bonus. The only snag was that the EMH would have to be off line during
the procedure and therefore unable to monitor either Seven or B'Elanna. As soon
as it was over and his matrix purged however, he could be restored to assess
the success or failure of B'Elanna's work.
*
* *
Seven
lay in Tom's arms listening to the soft sounds of his breathing as she
contemplated. For the second time in two days she wondered what love was really
all about and if the inhibitor removal was really necessary. Tom seemed to
enjoy himself when they had sex. Seven failed to see its attraction however,
except as a physical gratification for others. She certainly had no similar
sense of enjoyment in the way Tom had. Perhaps that would change if B'Elanna
succeeded.
The
tall blonde sighed heavily. There was a bittersweet irony to all this. Seven
had never felt so close to anyone as she had to the half-klingon. She had been
able to anticipate her actions and needs when they had been working today and
Seven had felt an exhilarated thrill as they worked together. Once it was over
though, they would return to their normal jobs and not have the opportunity to
work so closely again and the ex- drone resented that. Willing the project to
fail, however, was not an option. She had come so close now. To share real
depth of emotion would make her complete and perhaps begin to eradicate the
feelings of isolation and loneliness she had harboured for so long. Even now
she felt alone and wanted nothing more than to be back with B'Elanna but Seven
decided that it would be inappropriate to leave Tom for two nights running, so
instead, she relaxed her body as best she could and tried to sleep.
The
next morning Seven was summoned to the Captain's Ready Room. She arrived
promptly and discovered that the Doctor and B'Elanna had already joined the
Captain, B'Elanna sipping at what smelt like a hot chocolate whilst Janeway,
naturally, was savouring a hot coffee.
There
was no preamble about the meeting. The Doctor took the lead in explaining how
they could reduce the risk to B'Elanna before going over some final nuances
that he and B'Elanna had tackled late into the night.
Seven
at first felt guilty for not being as involved as she could have been, but then
realised that she could not undo her actions. She was still dubious about the
potential risk to the Chief Engineer though.
"This
has less risk involved than most of my Engineering repairs", B'Elanna
explained gently. "I'm prepared to take the risk and, as long as the
Captain is prepared, I can't see how you can continue to object".
"I
do not wish to be the cause of any harm to you, B'Elanna", Seven
responded, almost snapping out the reply.
Janeway
noticed how Seven used the engineer's first name again and felt a familiar pang
of jealousy, wondering how it was that Seven and B'Elanna were on first name
terms all of a sudden. She admonished herself once more, remembering that the
two women had been working closely on a very personal project for over two
weeks now. It was only logical that the barriers would eventually lessen.
"It
really is up to you now Seven." Janeway advised her. "It's your
choice if you want to go through with the procedure." The Captain took
another draught from her cup, looking at Seven carefully, unwilling to put any
pressure on her beautiful protégé. Unexpectedly, Seven sat down and stared at
her companions in the room. The young ex- drone could feel the conflict in her
yet she felt under a tremendous burden that she ought to be able to resolve.
Confusion flashed through her eyes as she tried to reason out her anxieties and
hesitancy.
Sensing
Seven's inner turmoil and wanting to give her some room to manoeuvre, B'Elanna
spoke up. "Seven, you don't have to make your decision right away. To be
honest, I'm in no fit state to do it today and I'm sure the Doc wants to run a
few checks with you before we go ahead. Why don't you take some time to think
about it?" she offered, earning a sharp look of reproval from the Captain.
"Yes",
Janeway concurred smoothly. "Take the day off and consider your options.
If you want to talk about any of this you know where I am", she continued
smoothly, putting the chain of command firmly back where it belonged.
Seven's
eyes darted between the two women, searching their faces for some hidden clue
on how to deal with her predicament. She stood once more as she came to a
decision. "You are correct. I need time to assimilate all my feelings on
this matter. I will return later when I have an informed and logical
choice." With that, the tall blonde nodded briefly at the other occupants
in the room before stalking out, her eyes unfocused as she searched her
feelings.
"Dismissed",
said the Captain softly, with a wry expression as the borg left. She turned her
attention to the Doctor and B'Elanna. "Make your preparations both of you.
Get some rest too B'Elanna. I've given you the day off. Just make sure to catch
up on your sleep. I have a feeling tomorrow will be a big day for all of
us." With a nod, she dismissed the bald hologram and shorter, slight
engineer. As the doors closed Janeway could still feel her heart hammering
inside her chest and she dwelt on her feelings for Seven a while longer,
feeling closer to her already.
*
* *
Feeling
out of sorts and unsure of how to proceed, Seven sought comfort through
familiarity. She spent time with the Borg children, ensuring that they had
plenty of study to do, as well as time to play, as children should. When she
was satisfied that they had been dealt with properly, she made her way to
Astrometrics, in order to perform a series of routine diagnostics and made
several minor adjustments to the instruments. The young woman realised that she
was employing delaying tactics in order to avoid the conflict she felt but was
not ready to think about them seriously yet.
When
she exhausted her supply of test routines, Seven found herself wanting to
express her concerns but was uncertain who to speak to. She remembered the Captain's
offer but for some inexplicable reason, felt uncomfortable exposing her
weaknesses to the Captain. Tom would not be suitable either as he would use the
time to try and comfort her instead of really listening or understanding how
she felt. Oddly enough, Seven felt herself drawn to speak with B'Elanna Torres,
so she asked the computer for the engineer's location.
"Lieutenant
Torres is on Holodeck One", came the bland reply. Seven was surprised.
After the brief this morning, she didn't think that there was anything further
to be done until she was ready to go ahead with the procedure. Viewing this as
one of her last opportunities to work closely with B'Elanna, Seven strode
towards the holodeck to offer her assistance.
She
realised her assumption was incorrect as she stepped through the doors of the
holodeck and found her heels sinking into soft white sand. Her skin registered
the change in atmosphere from the temperate, sterile corridor to a hot, humid
climate and she squinted her eyes as her pupils painfully constricted, trying
to block out the bright sunlight from her delicate retinas. There was a saline
smell hanging in the air and her auditory nerves registered the gentle rhythmic
beat of surf breaking on the shoreline. Her attention was caught by a shout
emanating from the sea. She turned and focused on a dark head bobbing in the
azure water and watched unabashed as B'Elanna stood and emerged from the ocean.
For
a moment Seven thought that she might be malfunctioning, for her mouth had
turned arid, her heart hammered furiously somewhere near her throat and her
insides turned to liquid as she watched the lithe, dark woman run toward her.
She was wearing a lime green one-piece swimsuit that Seven recognised as being
functional, yet it accentuated the dark woman's figure and tan perfectly.
She
struggled to gain her composure as B'Elanna stood in front of her, her chest
heaving from the exertion of both the swim and run.
"I
didn't know you were a fan of the beach", B'Elanna stated breathlessly as
she used strong hands to slick her dark hair over her head, wringing out
rivulets of seawater that ran chaotically over the curves of her body from the
thick tresses.
Seven
found that she had to swallow several times in order to get her vocal chords
working. "I am not. I thought that you were working on the project still
and came to offer my assistance."
B'Elanna
smiled, wondering why the ex- drone appeared so flustered, noticing the slight
flush to her alabaster skin and the racing pulse, clearly visible at the side
of her porcelain neck. "Nah, I'm just enjoying some time off. This is one
of my favourite places. I can wear myself out swimming and then relax and soak
up the warmth in the sun without a soul to disturb me", she explained.
"Then
I shall leave you in peace", Seven replied and turned her shoulders to go.
She was stopped by a gentle hand on her upper arm.
"There's
plenty of room to share, Seven", B'Elanna offered. "Besides, I like
your company", she smiled again as Seven noticed how the saline content of
the water had crystallised over the klingon's exposed skin, sparkling as the
bright sun reflected off its microscopic fascias.
B'Elanna
didn't wait for an answer as she led Seven towards a shaded area of the beach.
Within the umbra of the trees, a large blanket was spread neatly with a small
pile of clothes on one corner. B'Elanna threw herself onto one side of the
blanket and stretched out languidly, putting her hands behind her head to use
as a pillow and closing her eyes as she felt the warm breeze caress her body.
"Sit
down and relax, Seven", she told the tall blonde who had remained
standing, transfixed by the raven-haired beauty. B'Elanna felt the ground move
slightly as she heard Seven sit and opened one eye to squint at her companion.
She fought to hide a grin as she saw Seven sitting crossed-legged next to her,
back ramrod straight. "You can relax if you want to. No one else can see
you", she mocked lightly.
"I
do not feel like relaxing", was the hesitant reply. B'Elanna rolled over
onto her side and cradled her head on one hand. "You want to talk about
it?" she offered gently, watching the young woman stiffen slightly as she
warred within herself.
Seven
looked closely at B'Elanna and then began to speak. She confided all her inner
dreads and fears concerning the removal of the cortical inhibitor, from the
bombardment of her emotions to the possibility of B'Elanna getting injured
during the process. She expressed her fears for the borg children and how they
would react if she changed drastically and how her relationship with the
members of the crew could potentially alter. She even articulated her feelings
for Tom Paris and how uncertain she was about her relationship with him.
Throughout
this elucidation B'Elanna remained silent, watching Seven attentively and
listening carefully. She had thought that Seven might have had a few
reservations but she hadn't realised that up till now, Seven had remained
reticent to everyone.
Finally,
Seven ran out of words and looked miserably at the woman lying next to her,
smiling wanly.
"You
must think I am weak", she remarked self-depreciatingly.
B'Elanna
sat up hurriedly and looked intently at her, noticing how the difference in
their height became less marked when seated. "Not at all, Seven. Just the
opposite, in fact. To admit your most personal feelings to someone is one of
the bravest things you can do. By voicing them, you've already admitted them to
yourself."
B'Elanna
put her hand over Seven's and squeezed it gently. "Just remember that this
is for you. If you don't want to go through with it or you want more time say
so. No one will get offended."
Seven's
hand felt like it was on fire as it reacted to B'Elanna's touch. The blonde
woman gloried in the sensation for a brief second before responding to
B'Elanna's words.
"Thank
you for listening to me. I feel I can make a more informed decision now".
With that, Seven gently returned the pressure from B'Elanna's hand before
standing in one fluid movement. She gazed down at the dark engineer. "I
need to see the Captain", she explained before turning and exiting the
holodeck.
B'Elanna
slumped back down onto the blanket with a groan. As she had listened to Seven
and given her advice, she realised that her words were equally relevant to her
own predicament. She had been given the perfect opportunity to express her
feelings but had been stymied by her abrupt departure. She put both her fists
to her head in frustration. She had probably blown the one chance she had with
Seven. She spun around to lie on her front, grabbed her jacket from the neat
pile of clothing to make a pillow, and settled down to relax, trying not to
chastise herself needlessly and pondered over what Seven would tell the
Captain.