Your name echoing in its depths
Tearing your pictures into pieces
Never sure why you abandoned me
Throwing the pieces into the fire
Trying to burn your face from my heart.
I'm scared of the dark now
Trying to break through the pain
And where the hell are you?
Your dead, gone, past
Buried in the cold hard ground.
I can still hear your words
Everything you said that day
The way the rain pounded
Lightning flashing in a steel sky
Winding rushing through my hair
Whipping your words away.
I can remember the crippling pain
That dropped me to my knees
Screaming out your name
Tears of shame burning my eyes
My heart shattering like glass
Guilt so deeply caged within.
Responsibilities laid in my lap
Your death not your fault
Yet so much mine.
The Machines beep echoes
A teenage girl forced to choose
Forced to end your life
And forced to face your family.
Did you shed a tear for me
As you injected your drugs
Did you scream my name
As they coursed through your veins
Where you thinking of your girl
When your heart finally stopped.
Do you know what its like
To hold the person you love
When their life fades away
Can you imagine how it felt
For me to feel your spirit leave me
When it was all so pointless.
Watching them lower you
Into the cold hard ground
Feeling my world slip away
Holding your parents together
Crying for a love i lost
Facing you everyday in your twins face.
Stop haunting my dreams
Please stop the pain
That you still inflict from the grave
You took your own life
You chose the easy way out
you died a cowards death.