Okay, I'm not gonna act like I'm not pissed at you cause I'd be lying. I know your pissed at me as well, but for what? I haven't done anything. I knew this time would come soon enough where He'd be back in your life and you'd just ignore me. You don't understand what I'm saying, so don't try and act like you fucking do. I feel like your back up, when he's not there, you know I will be. I feel like your taking me for granted. Are you ever going to realize what your putting me through? I thought we were best friends, but we're not even close. I have someone else that actually cares about me more than you ever will. You don't even care, do you? We never talk, sure we talk, but I mean about our feelings and emotions. I need that alright? I need you, but you obviously don't need me at all. That hurts. Almost ten years now and we're just throwing it down the drain, I've tried though. I can honestly say that I've tried, for once there was something worth trying for. Nothing's working. I'm giving up on us, our friendship. Wait... what friendship? I wouldn't call this a friendship. OMG! I can't believe I actually thought I could trust you again, what was I thinking? You always hurt me in the end. I can't take anymore. You've already broken me, how much damage are you going to cause me? Are you afraid of having a deep conversation with me? I don't understand why you never tell me how you feel. I asked you once maybe twice if you wished we were closer and you just ignored me. That hurt so much, I take it the answer was no. I could've cried right on the spot. God!!! I just wanna S C R E A M !!! But even if I did you wouldn't hear me. I take it you haven't even read my poems lately. People have been asking me who they're about because they're so violent and if I'm feeling okay. They all think I'm freakin crazy!!!!! Am I?  I Am!!! What the fuck am I supposed to tell them? What!!! I can't control myself now, I'm losing my grip. I'm gonna snap!!! You just need to listen to me!!! L I S T E N !!! Please listen to what I'm trying to say, just once... I guess this is it, we're done, we're through, we're over... I can't take it anymore... F U C K Y O U !!! Do you understand yet? Didn't think so....