13 – And when
all is said and done …
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
Procedures
went according to plan. Megatron was signed out, and his contract with the Care
Centre was stamped with a ‘CURED’ sign in big green letters.
Starscream was overjoyed.
Finally … finally something he had worked at had come though.
“Starscream!” He said in shock as the seeker grabbed his hands, spinning him around,
optics wide.
“What, what, what?!” He said, smiling brightly, optics alive and glowing, still holding his
hands.
Megatron looked at him,
calming down, and then giving a small smile. “Come on; settle down before you
blow something.”
A small amount of giddiness
faded, but he still remained excited. “But I just did it! I finally got you
out of there! Can’t I at least celebrate?”
He brought his face
very close as the seeker’s optics begged him to continue his game, and Megatron
leaned back, still feeling that this was all very sudden.
“Okay, okay, go on before
I get irritated.” He said gruffly.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
The seeker,
totally ignoring his tone, cheered and looped around him again, before flying
off to spin in the air, the sunset sending off purple, blue and red light from
the two suns, making him seem almost like a rainbow. The red lit up on his armour
like a bombfire; the blue like the pristine sky of
Earth; the silver glazed magenta. And Megatron watched the seeker fly; twirling
and darting in the light, transforming to jet mode to zoom up and then down
and around him again, and shifting back to robot mode with a laugh. As he watched
him play, he felt a new emotion stir up within him. Well … it wasn’t really
new, but in this situation it was.
Happiness.
Normally, he had only
felt such things after he had completed a mission and could relax for a little
while, but to feel it was seldom in the war, and it totally caught him off guard
to feel it now. But as he watched the being he once hated; never understood
for the hell of him; never knew when he was going to kill him in his sleep;
to see him so very happy about making him sane again was so unexpected and strange
to him that it really made Megatron truly think about him. Truly think about
how very beautiful he was right now as he played. How very far he had come since
the war.
And how very much he
loved him for all he had done.
No, just loved him full
stop.
The ex-leader shook
his head mentally to recover from the pure shock of this realisation. But …
as Starscream came over and grabbed his hand, pulling him into a twirl with
him and laughing brightly, sweetly with that cute voice of his, did he realise
that he always did. But he was so very afraid of the raw emotion that he had
beaten him down … made him terrible and cold and destroyed the chance with him
in the war. He had hated him, yes, but the seeker and Soundwave had carefully
drained that hatred away like poison being extracted from a wound. He no longer
had any hatred left for him, which only left the other emotion he had also felt
for him.
So what if he was a
bastard in the war? He had made him like that and now he was back to the way
he should have been. The war had lifted the cloud over both of their eyes, and
they could see the dawn.
Megatron let Starscream
spin him around, letting him lead him for once in a rare moment of happiness.
Now that his mind was clear, the proud Ex-Decepticon leader could embrace a
new life of fighting, fair fighting in the arena. A life where he could know
the real Starscream and the real Soundwave and the real Shockwave … the life
which would make him even stronger than he already was.
He felt the seeker slow
down, and eventually stop, panting gently as he smiled at Megatron, giggling
like a naughty child. And Megatron smiled, reaching over and rubbing the top
of his head like he was a cat. As it was, Starscream gave a playful nip at him,
moving to his touch.
“Heeeeeeey!” He protested, batting Megatron’s hand away after
a while. “I’m not your pet you know!” But he poked his tongue out at him, grabbing
his hand and holding it.
Megatron snickered,
“I once heard Swindle call you ‘Megatron’s pet’ you know …”
“And he will get a new
faceplate by the time I’m though with him for that comment,” Starscream snickered,
giving a playfully demonic look at his ex-leader at the thought. “Come on, I’ve
gotta take you home!”
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Home …Megatron thought, as he landed beside the red
seeker, looking at the large doors that led to his apartment. Starscream looked
at him and swiped a card though the lock, and it opened for them as the seeker
stepped inside, waving his hand to Megatron.
“Welcome to my castle!”
He smirked. “Not as big as the one I wanted in the human’s past, but good enough.”
Surprisingly, it was
rather roomy inside. Once though the doors, Megatron saw to the right the lounge
room; in front of him was the kitchen area for heating energon, and to the left was three doors – One he guessed was
Starscream’s room, the other his lab, but the third he didn’t know what it could
be.
The seeker stretched,
flexing his three wings in the process, and going over to his kitchen to grab
some energon, smiling at Megatron as he looked around.
“Feel free to browse,
but the lab is locked so you can’t get in. The third room is all yours. Just
move the crates out here if you need more space. I …wasn’t expecting to have
a roommate as you can probably guess.” He chuckled nervously.
As Megatron peeked into
the room, seeing a simple cupboard and a bed, plus a desk with the numerous
crates scattered about, he replied. “Oh! No … no it’s fine. Thank you.”
“No problem.” The seeker
said simply, chucking a heated cube to him when he came back around, holding
his own and going to sit on the large couch, lazily turning the Holo-TV on.
Primus, I’ve never seen him so relaxed before
… Megatron thought
in surprise, watching him. He looked around him, looking for a place to sit,
before Starscream laughed and pointed next to him.
“There’s plenty of room
here you know,” He snickered. “I won’t bite.”
Megatron blinked, then
slowly came around and sat next to him, tense about having someone so close
for a moment, before relaxing after a moment. Starscream smiled and changed
the channel to the news.
“…and now, the Guardians have sorted out the
new rules for the Gladiator’s Tournament have been
finalised and printed. All participants in this month’s coming event will need
to fill out an application sheet sent to all tonight.-“
As this was said,
a clatter came in the mail box as a datapad was shoved
inside the latch, falling into a neat pile with the other mail by the door.
“Starscream!” Megatron said surprised, as the seeker jumped over him to grab it, excited
about getting his evening mail and the prospect of finally sealing his promise.
He came back with three datapads in hand, jumping back on the sofa and handing
him one.
“The Guardians must
already know you’re here. Smart they are …” He smirked, flicking though his
other mail.
And Megatron read though
the new rules and requirements, he felt content. They weren’t much different
from the original rules except more safety was added to the list. Seeing an
application form down near the bottom of the document, he signed it.
Kind of like signing myself
up for a new life, He
thought.
And so, they watched
the news together, hearing about some energon explosion and a couple of people
being killed. Also, more of the criminals on the street having been caught,
making Cybertron safer. There was also a weather report, which consisted of
news about the two suns they were orbiting and how long they would hold up.
As they watched, Megatron
took his change to fully look over Starscream’s form.
Primus, I never realised it before now … he’s
actually really nice looking for a seeker. Funny, I usually don’t like seekers
much, but him …He
let the thoughts trail off.
And to think, Starscream really wanted me as his
companion when he arrived at the Decepticon Base all those years ago … I feel
like a fool not to have realised all of what I know now.
Shaking his head,
he gave a jolt as Starscream curled up near his arm contently, lazily closing
his optics. If Megatron has of allowed it, he would have grinned.
Who would have thought this would have ever happened
between us?
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
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Later on,
when Megatron had sorted out all of his things (very little considering) into
the right spots in his room, he came out with a content look. He went out onto
the balcony to rest against the rails, looking out over the planet that had
almost been destroyed by his war.
And yet … after all the eons of war and fighting,
this planet has still lived on and prospered. Makes me almost regret starting
the last war… but, the LAST war it will be. I refuse to start another …
He heard a yelp
behind him and turned, seeing Starscream hopping around and then at the door,
holding his foot and looking annoyed.
“Damn! Dropped a scalpel
on my foot! Oww ….” He nursed the tiny cut in the
metal, and Megatron chuckled at him.
“Don’t tell me a mere
cut is going to affect you?” He snickered.
“HA!” Starscream glared.
“It just surprised me is all!”
“Oh calm down. You’ll
blow something if you don’t watch it,” Megatron’s optics glittered teasingly.
The seeker let out a
grumble and dropped his foot down, ruffling his three wings in irritation. If
he had of had feathers, he would look like a puffed out chicken.
Megatron merely chuckled,
then turned back out towards the setting suns. It would be dusk soon, and the
stars would be out, glittering like jewels in a vast blue black desert. Silence
fell between them as they regarded the sunset. Starscream breathed in deep,
tasting the sweet taste of the air from his home. Oh how he had missed it while
he was on Earth. Sometimes he would have killed merely to get home and smell
the air again … And now that he was back, everything that he had gone though
seemed worth it. To be back home, he was finally starting
to feel free …
“Starscream?”
The seeker jolted, looking
up. He hadn’t realised that he had lapsed out for a while there. So now, he
looked up into his former leader’s optics, which looked strangely slightly nervous.
“Yes, Megatron?” He prompted.
Megatron looked away
for a moment, then back out to the sunset. “Remember that time we made Kremzeek,
and we were up on that tower? Did you see the sunset then?”
“Yes … I remember,”
How could he not? It was so beautiful … “Why?”
“I remember … its like
important things are decided between us at sunset, isn’t it?” He looked back
at the seeker.
“I suppose so …” What
is he getting at? Starscream waited patiently for Megatron’s reply, even
if he was never very patient.
The ex-leader sighed,
looking back out to the sunset. The light glazed his silver body so it glowed
slightly, making his red optics more pronounced. “You told me … back at the
Centre … you wanted me as your companion … once …”
“That’s right.”
“Do you still want that?”
Starscream was taken
aback by the question. Was Megatron nuts?! Of COURSE he did! He hadn’t worked
his butt off repairing Megatron’s sanity because he hated him! … well did … but that wasn’t the point!
“Y-yes.
Of course I still do ….” Starscream watched the other carefully, “… why…?”
And Megatron smiled.
A smile free of malice and evil. His true smile … “Because
I would like to be yours …”
And Starscream’s hand
flew to his mouth; optics widened in surprise and shock, sparkling with sudden
emotion. He started to tremble, thinking he had misheard but knowing at the
same time he has not.
He wants … he … me …
us …
And a thin line
of tears started to spill down Starscream’s cheeks as he smiled, giving a sob
and wiping them away only to be replaced by more. And suddenly, everything seemed
to fall into place. His new life … his new partner … everything …
“Megatron ….”
And the seeker ran over,
wrapping his arms around the silver transformer, burying his head into the other’s
chest. To his shock he felt Megatron embrace him tightly too,
arms around the seeker’s back and wings. And then they made optic contact,
and a single thought ran though their minds:
I love you.
No, not the love of mushy Autobots. This was Decepticon love, and they would make
sure that they would only save their affections for private. They had not changed
much, as the former Autobots would see. But to each other, they had changed
beyond what they thought they could ever do.
Both realised at that
moment that all of their hate had been destroyed. They may never forget the
pains and suffering the other caused, but they had forgiven each other. Their
problems had not left, but they had been shrunk and were now so small they barely
mattered anymore.
And as they held each
other in an embrace for the first time ever, when one was not upset or needing
a problem sorted, they realised they had been running around the other all along.
The abuse was something that neither would forget nor be proud of. Some wounds
ran too deep. But both were not so shallow as to let it destroy what Starscream
had truly wanted out of Megatron. And Megatron would not let it worry him as
long as Starscream was happy.
They remained that way
for a long time, heads on shoulders, arms around the other, breathing in each
others scent. Both had their optics shut off, and Megatron wondered for the
first time ever if Starscream was …
He actually went red
at the thought. He promptly shook the thought away.
Starscream sighed peacefully
in his audio, drawing his head back a little so he could look up at Megatron,
arms still around each other. He chuckled.
“No fair,” He said.
“You’re taller than me now!”
“And you only just noticed
this?” The other smirked.
“Well …” Starscream
pondered this, optics wide with thought. “Kind of!”
Megatron shook his head,
reaching up with a hand to sit on his head and a look of knowing on his face.
“You never cease to amuse me.”
Starscream smirked,
looking back up at him, and realised for the first time how very close they
were … feeling Megatron’s body pressed against his own, limbs around the other.
Starscream unconsciously tightened his hold, looking into the other’s optics
suddenly with a new emotion.
Was it desire?
Megatron looked down
into his optics, sensing the sudden change in atmosphere. Oh … I don’t know if I’m ready to deal with
this … But the look in the seeker’s optics, faces drawing slowly closer,
was sucking him in …
They were barely an
inch away now, and Megatron whispered, “Are you sure? This is going to change
everything …”
Starscream nodded slightly,
“It will tell me you are true to me … I want to feel you, Megatron … not blows
this time …”
I want to know what it feels like. I want to feel
the difference between what you were before and what you are now … maybe even
let it go further … right now … oh …
Slowly, so very
slowly, the two old enemies now friends, so close to each other and willing
to risk everything to be together at last … the old battle enemies …
As one, their lips met,
and both of their systems switched straight into overdrive.
Passion suddenly
ignited in their bodies as the touch set ablaze a fire they never knew they
had for the other. Their optics shut off, and suddenly their arms tightened
so their bodies were flush against each other. Starscream put a hand up to stroke
Megatron’s face, deepening the kiss, feeling the rush of how forbidden this
would have been in the past.
Oh … He moaned, tightening his grip more. Primus … I didn’t know I felt this way! Oh
feels … so …
Megatron pressed
back against his lips, inwardly smiling as he felt the seeker’s knees buckle,
supporting his weight in his own arms. He too was in a fair amount of disarray
for his emotions, but at the moment he didn’t care. He felt Starscream cling
to him, and tightened his grip more. He was glad the seeker could take his strength
for once, as he merely felt Starscream kiss back deeper.
And they broke off,
Starscream giving a gasp, panting, optics dim with
feeling.
“Oh …” He moaned … “Did
you see this happening?”
“No.” Megatron answered
honestly. He brang the back of his hand up to wipe his lips, smirking as Starscream
rested against his chest. “Are you willing to go further?”
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Starscream
was panting loudly, feeling his body heat rise. Megatron had barely touched
him at all and he was already hotter than he had ever been in his life.
Primus … I never thought he could make me feel
this way! This good … if this is the way to start anew, then I’m taking it!
He was sprawled
on the bed, Megatron over him and sucking on his neck, his hands caressing his
body gently. Oh that touch … he knew this was a good idea! He had never felt
Megatron be so very gentle before. Oh but it was a good change … he moaned,
urging him on, legs wrapping around his waist.
The ex-leader felt a
great amount of satisfaction to see the seeker like this. Remembering back to
when he had beaten Starscream to a pulp, remembering him panting out of pain,
he registered the difference in the sound. He decided he definitely like this sound more. It let
him know that for once he was returning the favour for all that Starscream had
done.
Starscream let off a
purr (), startling him. He could purr?! That was something he had never heard
before … but he liked it none the less …
“Megatron …” He moaned
out again, and the addressee felt a shiver run though him. He nipped his neck,
leaning back up to face him.
“Yes?” He said, smirking,
then leaning back down to kiss him, and felt Starscream squirm under him, giving
off another moan, clenching his hands on Megatron’s shoulders.
He broke off with a
gasp; “Just so you … know …” He suppressed a squirm as Megatron rubbed his chest.
“I haven’t ever done this … before … so go easy …”
Megatron grinned. “I
wouldn’t have it any other way.”
The seekers optics widened
as he felt a sudden surge of pleasure though him, and looked down. Part of his
plating had been removed; exposing a port for an energy transfer, except this
one was not just for energy …
And Starscream screamed,
pleasure ripping though him a hundred times more powerful than a moment ago.
His body tensed around Megatron’s, arching up to him, grabbing him tightly.
He realised then that this night would be one he would treasure for a long time
to come …
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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If one were on Earth, the scene would be appropriate to have
birds chirping in the background. But since this was Cybertron, the sounds were
that of outside machinery. But to the two sleepers, it had the same effect of
tranquility.
Starscream’s face grimaced, before he suddenly heard his ‘alarm’ clock go off:
“Oooh good morning sunshine!
Wakey wakey time! Got to rise and shine! Good morning sunshine!”
He inwardly cursed Hook to be blown up.
Sighing, he brought his optics back online, feeling Megatron lying with him,
half of his body still on top of the seekers. He didn’t mind, for once, smiling
at the memories of the night before. He had never felt so good …
Suddenly chuckling, he leant over and nuzzled the other’s head, purring for
him to wake up. Megatron gave a snort, twitching, before also coming online.
“Morning …” Starscream murmured, smiling with his optics half open“WHAT was
that singing I hear just now?” He said by way of greeting. Starscream shut the
alarm clock off with irritation.
“Hook’s death wish as I like to refer
to it as.” The seeker grumbled.
Megatron stared at him, at the clock, and chuckles, shaking his head. “I don’t
want to know.”
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Song – Hoobastank – The reason
() – Okay, okay another of my ideas to make Starscream even more adorable than he already is :P I thought, since he was as seeker that when his motors are on standby, he could use the vibration to transfer it into a purr. I thought it was cute, and now I have heaps of my friends hooked on the idea, so I thought I’d share it in one of my more … serious fics :P