October Journal

I decided that I was going to completely redo my web page today as I tried to get into the geocities page builder and it never would load so I just made this one using Front Page.   I had a hard time finding graphics that I liked.  Most that I found were on black backgrounds or just too dark.

I have no idea how often I will update the journal. I am not a creatre of habit so doing the same thing on a daily basis is difficult for me.  I will try to update a couple times a week.

I am really proud of myself how I am sticking to my diet and exercise program.   Since I started the weight training using the Joyce Vedral video tapes, the inches have just started rolling off.  I just can't believe I have lost 2 inches off my waist and more than that off of my hips.

Weight Watchers weigh in was today and I  lost another 1.6 pounds to be exact!   Yipee!!  By summer time I will be sporting a bikini!

For some reason I have been having cravings for Ben and Jerrys Peanut Butter Cup Ice Cream so I finally gave in a bought some.  I guess I ate about a cup which isn't too bad as usually I would have eaten the entire container!  LOL!  I will eat lightly tomorrow and do some more exercise to make up for the ice cream today.

Oh boy what a day!  Not really good and not really bad.  I started out this morning bright and early and did my weight training workout. I ate breakfast and lunch like I was supposed to.  Come evening, I am eating my kid's ice cream and having micorwave popcorn, the kind with all the butter and oil.

I think I need to throw the rest of the ice cream out but I think there may be only a couple of cups left so the kids may finish it off tomorrow and I won't have to worry about it anymore.

My daughter moved back home with her new baby.  Today she fought on the telephone with him for a couple of hours and frankly I got tired of listening to it.  He called her a cuss name and I just about came unglued.

Then my husband got his snoot full of liquor and started mouthing off about nothing.   So today was just one of those days.

ON a good note, I did receive my new exercise videos. The Karhy Smith Latin tape and the Hugo Diaz Latin tape.  Both are cardio tapes and I did a little bit of the Hugo tape and it is a blast.  I will do one of them all the way through tomorrow.

I guess it wouldn't hurt to journal a bit more often.  It feels good to get some of these thing out of my system.

I am getting back on track tomorow and stay really strict for the next few days.   I am not eating too terribly but I know it could very easily get out of hand.

I have been thinking about taking a trip to Europe next year.  I love to travel.

I am back on track starting on the 17th, that evening.  I went to cyberdiet and posted for some support and it was there.  I don't know what I would do without the online support groups. The WW meetings are great but you can always get support online.

My daughter decided to stay the night with the boyfriend Wednesday night.  She never came back last night nor bothered to call.  Pretty typical.  I just try to stay out of it as it looks like she will have to learn the hard way.  Her best friend called yesterday asking for her and after I said she was at his apartment, she said she couldn't understand why she keeps hanging around him when he treats her bad.  I said I didn't understand it either.  She said maybe be feels obligated to stay with him because of the baby.

I guess I haven't really introduced my family.  I have a son, I will call him P Jr. in this journal.  I have a daughter and I will call her K. K just had a baby back in June.  I have a husband and I will call him P Sr. in this journal.  Hope that clears some things up.

Bacl to the weight loss.  I expect to be  in the 180s by weigh in on Monday as I am extremely close to that right now. Yesterday I had a great workout session.   I started out with the first half of the Kathy Smith Latin aerobic tape.  The first part is about 20 minutes long and the time just flew by as it is so much fun.   The dances are not that hard at all.  I danced in bare feet as my Jazz shoes are at K and boyfriend's apartment. I earned an A in Jazz dance when I was in college and also an A in weight training.  :-)

Then I did my Joyce Vedral Fast Forward Tape Cycle 2 and I did the extra ab section.   Yeah that got the old blood a pumping.  I understand why doctors often prescrive exercise as treatment for depression as doing the workout and after the workout your mood definitely is elevated!  I would urge everyone to try some exercise when they are feeling blue.  Also I noticed that when I exercise several times a week my PMS is not bad and I don't get bloated during that time of the month.  I also think that drinking lots of water every day has something to do with less bloating too.  I try to drink at least 6   8 ounce glasses of water every day and more if I can.

So the workout went great!  I am going to have to buy heavier dumbells as the ones I have are too light again!  I am using 2  -- 3--- and 5 pound dumbells.  I must say that for the squating exercises it feels like I am holding nothing at all the weights are too light.  I used to have a set of 10s and 15 pound dumbells but could only find one 10 pound dumbell out in the garage!  LOL!  Yes only one!  I did find a set of 6.6 pound dumbells though so I will use them until I get the heavier ones.  I used to work out with weights years ago and glad I saved the dumbells I had for the future!

Eating.  Eating has gone extremely well the past couple of days. I got over the binging urge.  Whew!  I bought some splenda sugar substitute for my morning coffee.  Little changes in your diet can make a difference.  I cut out all soda pop.  I was probably drinking a liter of regular coke daily.  Think about all the empty calories that must have!  Changing from regular sugar to Splenda decreases my calories by 70 per day.  Say I was drinking about 450 calories a day in Coke and the sugar is 35 calories a teaspoon.  That is 520 calories a day 7 days a week of purely junk calories that aren't needed at all!!  I changed from regular white bread to low cal multi grain bread.  Again a big reduction in calories and fat and a gain in fiber!

I have written a lot today! It is almost the end of the month!

Good Morning!  It is about 6:30am Sunday morning here! I managed to curb the call of the ice cream for now. 

Break out the big hair and the Back to The Future Movies, I am now in the 80s!!!

I got on the scale this morning and I have reached another milestone.  I am now 189.5!  Whooo Hooo!!!  Goodbye 190s; Hello 180s! This also means that I have lost 10 pounds!  And that means I get a 10 pound reward!  I told myself that for every ten pounds I lose, I get a nice treat.  I haven't decided what the treat will be yet. Maybe a new exercise video or motivational tape??

I have been browsing the web and looking at other people's weight loss sites and they are just so inspiring. I love looking at the charts and it seems that like clockwork if they stick to their plan their weight just peels off bit by bit.  I know if I keep at the low end of my WW points and do my weight training and aerobics, my pounds will peel off too and before I know it, I will be at my goal.  It is happening already!  I look at my weekly weigh ins and measurement chart and I see it happening.

With weight loss we all want a quick fix, or some miracle pill to make us lose the weight.  I look at it like I did not become 65 pounds overweight in a matter of weeks. It took about 6 YEARS to put it on.  So I now realize that if I eat less and exercise more, that weight WILL come off!  It is like clockwork.  It has to come off.  Now I won't lose 40 pounds in 4 weeks but I will lose 1 to 2 pounds a week. Just think if I just lost 1 pound a week for 52 weeks.  You do the math. That is 52 pounds in a year!  It is doable!  I also think a person has a choice and regardless of what they choose next year will still come no matter what we do and we will either be at the same weight we are today, more weight than we are today, or less weight than we are today.  So if I chose to do nothing, chances are I will end up with one of the first two options and if I decide to eat less and move more, I will have option 3.   I like Option Number 3, don't you??LOL!

Another thing I noticed about the other weight loss websites is that many of the people belong to webrings.  I think I am going to sign up for some webrings as I would like others to read my journal and read about my progress and hopefully it will inspire someone to make a goal and reach it. 

Have you ever just had one of those days when everything just goes wrong?  Today is one of those days.  I feel so depressed today.  My whole day has been ruined.

I get up with great intentions of doing all my exercises and eating right and it all just went down the drain.  Thank goodness tomorrow is another day to start with a clean slate.

I have a daughter and she has an abusive boyfriend.  She keeps swinging back and forth between living with him and coming back home to live with me. Every time I get sucked into the drama.

He likes to call over here and pester her for hours at a time.  They must have argued for 2 hours straight before I finally told her to please get off the phone. He started calling at 7am.

Then he kept calling and calling.  I counted 52 calls from him. Every minute.   Some were two calls per minute.  It shows up on my caller id who called and what time. I turned the phones off. 

Finally I called the phone company and they told me to call the police and I did so they came out and made a report. 

My daughter got mad at me and started chewing me out.  She made fun of me.   She really hurts my feelings when she acts like that.  Sometimes I don't think my daughter thinks I have any feelings or she wouldn't say the cruel things she says to me. I feel like I have tiptoed aroudn on eggshells with her for years so I wouldn't make her mad but she doesn't hesitate to be mean to me. 

She has a baby with this clown so he is going to be harder to break up with I suppose.   I think she is neglecting the baby.  When she came over yesterday, she went out with a girlfriend and I was watching the baby and I made him a bottle and I looked in the diaper bag for a bib and all the bibs and clothes that were in the bag were filthy. Thick layers of dried up formula. She stayed over here for a week and a half and didn't give the baby a bath the entire time!

Sheesh he just called again!

Things with daughter and the baby are bad. I am going to have to step in legally.  I really hate to do this. She went back to her creepy boyfriend yesterday.

After the rough past few days, yesterday was much better exercise wise.  I did some weight training yesterday.  I ate fair yesterday.  Once again I skipped dinner and had some crackers.

I did go and get my 10 pound weight loss reward for myself.  I bought a set of 10 and 15 pound dumbells and I bought some new lipstick and foundation. It was nice rewarding myself for a job well done!

A young man at the store was flirting with me.  I was in the check out line and a man in front of me probably in his mid 20s saw the weights in my cart and was asking about them and he was flirting.  It was kinda nice!

My son had Parent Teacher night and he had a glowing report.  I am so proud of him!

Today is Cycle 3 of my Joyce Vedral tape so it is thighs, triceps, biceps, and abs today.  I am going to use those new heavier weights for my thigh exercises today!

I haven't written for a little while.  Things are still going great with my weight loss.  I weighed in at WW today and went to a meeting and I am now 189.  Just a half pound loss but I measured again and I have lost more than 6 inches from all over my body.  I will get the new figures up on the prgress page in the next couple of days.

I am still weight training most every day but I haven't been that good with the extra aerobics.  I find I like weight training much much better than aerobics. Plus my daughter came over today and stayed until late so it kinda threw off things.

Tomorrow is Halloween and I imagine my son will get tons of candy.  I dont plan on eating any of it. I have done well at staying away from candy.   Now ice cream, that is a whole different story.  :-) This week I am going to be really strict with my diet and see how many pounds I lose this week if I don't cheat at all. I am also going to force myself to do 5 days of aerobics in addition to the weight training.

What has been the key to my success this time?  I have started plenty of diets only to fall off in a week or 2 but now I am approaching the one month mark and it sure has gone by quickly!

I think joining weight watchers has been a key.  I have to pay for so by george I am going to follow the plan and lose the weight.  I hear people say they can't afford weight watchers.  I just wonder if they will be able to afford the medications for type II diabetes, heart disease, and other treatment related to obesity. I htink prevention is much less expensive than the consequences! I think I am the only me I have!  I am important enough and I am worth spending the money on! I deserve it and I am worth it!

Second thing besides following the WW eating plan is exercise.   The Joyce Vedral weight training tapes are vital to my success.  I went hiking the other day with my son and normally I would have been huffing and puffing up the first hill but I didn't not even breathe hard the entire hike.  It was easy as pie! 

My aches and pains are gone!  I am enjoying my new energy and strength! 

On to November Journal