| April 25, 2003 I've got bit of updating to do. I recieved the papers from K and began to schedule my appointments. Here's the run down of what's scheduled 30 April - Psych Eval. May 1 - 1st Consult w/ Dr. Pohl May 6 - Gall Bladder Ultrasound May 8 - Dietician May 12 - Cardio HEhehehehehehe! Looks like I could very well have this sugery in JUNE! HEhehehehehehe! I'm pretty sure I don't have sleep apnea. I think my dh does, but I don't wake up or feel that gasping sensation that everyone talks about. BUT if I must I must. To be honest, a night away with a full nights sleep...even hooked up to several different wires is a TON better than having to jump immediatly up if a baby or chld calls me! HEHEHEHE! I'm also working on weening the baby. I've finally gotten him to take a pacifier in short spurts that will get longer as the time goes on. He just needs me to rock him and if I sneak the "mimi" (our version of binky) in then he's pretty much out for the night. I want him off me by end of April. I hate to think that he's getting the short end of the stick, but in all honesty since I had a breast reduction, he's always had to be supplimented so anything he ever got from me was just gravy. I also went to see my PCP today. Actually, I saw the on call doc since mine was off today. I go to this medical group with several Doctors. My children also go as they have ped's too. In fact my childrens nurse practioner's father owns the bar that Kev and I met at! We are teaching my children to call her Jonesy as that's what we call her. I didn't even know her first name until I called the office one day and she answered with "Christine speaking!" LOL...but I stray. I called the doct to have them check my ears. There's such pressure that I was afraid I was getting an infection. Nope, just allergies so I"m back on Flonase...love it! Of course I scooped out as much free samples as I could weezle. I also do that with formula. I'm constantly calling Jonesy to see if I can stop by to pick some free samples up...hehehehe. The big joke is that The Jones Family has supplimented our family for YEARS!!!!!!! Again, I stray. So I told the doc that I was pursueing wls and he says....ready for this...GREAT! I've got several patients that have had success with the surgery! I was a bit shocked because I've read so many stories about people having to talk their pcp into going along with it! At least I know that if I needed a letter from my PCP that I'd have their support. Also, it was refreshing and hugely releiving to know that my medical group and several of the doctors have experience with WLS patients so that follow up after my release from Dr Pohl would be an easy transition! YIPEE...yet another smooth path along this journey. NOt going to focus on the empending road blocks. Not yet. Gonna keep is positive! Gonna belive that this was ment to be and that as long as I stay focused on the end result that I'll get through this with little struggle. As an added bonus, I saw the MTV special on plastic sugery and it included a woman who had wls. Another sign? Who knows, but I'm gonna thank the gods anyway! April 19, 2003 Thursday I attended my first support meeting for WLS. I saw what could possibly become my surgeon, Dr. Pohl. First he asked if anyone had medical questions that needed answering. After a few general one, he then asked if we, as a group, could solve a problem for him. That shocked me. Most doctors you run across now days have that "God" complex with the be all end all attitudes. So to see a surgeon ask for help was refreshing. Mind you, he wanted to find some suggestions to help steer more patients to the support group. And as usual I opened my big mouth and stuck my foot deep down inside. I'm such a loud mouth with a terrible need to solve the problem and suggest the most obvious of answers. Gee and I thought I'd just attend as a silent observer. LAUGHS! Then we broke into small groups. I like this environment as we all got to go around the room, introduce ourselves and ooohhhh and aaaahh over everyones success. There was a moderator there that kept us in line, which I liked because that made sure that each point was addressed and answered before moving on. THe group ranged from someone who was 2 1/2 years out from surgery to me who hadn't even been to their first consult.. . Liked it, Loved it will attend again. OH, must make note that I drove up to the meeting with K and her Mom. I'm keeping her name an initial until I get approval to "out" her. I'm so lucky to have found someone not only in my town, but no word of a lie less than half a mile from my house! Yipee We can slurp our pureed together. Actually, She's probably going to be three or four month ahead of me. Again, lucky me as I've got her paving the way for me. Thanks K! I enjoyed her company, LOVED her mother and think her kids are the darn cutest things...outside of my own! I can't wait to become better friends with her...(reminder, email K so she doesn't think her stinky breath freaked me out! LOL) K gave me some of her old paperwork, including the list of doctors names I need to contact for the various appts. I've made my gall bladder and my cardiology appt. Of course everyone else was closed due to Good Friday. So that brings me up to date with all that's happenening. Actually, I've been doing a lot of thinking about the "dying" aspect of this surgery. It's like I'm getting ready to dye...weird. Even the paper is giving me an "out" What fell out as I was cleaning up after my dh...but a flyer for prearranging your funneral! YIKES... A sign? Not sure, but I also spent a great deal of time talking to my dh about who gets what and what to do with me...right down to my jewerly. ALmost like I have to square that part away before I can totally focus on the positive or I have to be careful not to tempt fate with my confidence. Think Im a freak? Feel free to let me know! If you are feeling the same, Email me too! I'd love to have company in my planning. I'm also wondering if I can bring my laptop to the hospital. I'm thinking of brining the Godfather series and watching the whole thing...great way to take my mind off stuff don'tcha think? April 10. 2003 Haven't updated much as there's not to much to say until after my consultation. I don't want people thinking that I've given up on my site so...here's just a brief update about life in general. I'm struggling to maintain a balance between house, three children, my scrapbooking and friends. Let alone my relationship with my dh. He's such a great guy whom without I'd not have the option of this surgery. We've had a hard time of it lately. He put it out into the open...our children have really recked havic on the "us" of yesterday. While we did live together for about a year and half, we never really got to "be" together for much longer. I found out I was pregnant before we got married, but after our engagment. It's been tough ever since. I just want to relax with him and spend time getting to know him again. I hope that we can hang in there until the babes get old enough us to pass off on people so that we can have a break. I've been in contact with several people outside of my aunt and cousin who've had this sugery. One live right down the street from me. I'm getting excited to have made a friend that lives close by and has had the surgery close to when I do. We are going to attend the support group for the surgeon next Thursday so I'll post then. In the mean time, I'm teetering at a cool 292 lbs. Seems my affection for baking has returned, along with the uncontrolable desire to inhale every crumb that comes out of the oven. I just KNOW I'm going to have a hard time with head hunger. UGH Not talking about the war except to say Glad we are kickin some ass! Struggling with the fear of dying. Not the actual fear of death, just the fear of leaving my beautiful children. It breaks my heart to think that I could effect the rest of their lives in a terribly negative way by dying. My youngest wouldn't even have a conscious reckalection of me! Okay, my spelling sucks and I'm too tired to care. More another day. |
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