I sat in a bar one valentines night spending some time with a woman I have always viewed as the opitamy of everything I, or any man, could ask for in someone. I was alone that evening, not having a significant other to spend some "quality time" with but, just hanging out and getting drunk and wallowing in my own self pity. This beautiful friend of mine saw this and did something rather unexpected, unwarranted, and miraculous. She looked over at me and asked me for a kiss. I felt like one of those cartoon characters whos hearts leap from their chests and eyes bulge. My blood instantly raced as I anxiously obliged. At the moment our lips touched, parted, and our tongues embraced everything around me faded. No sounds of music, no people talking, not the bartender clanging glasses behind us, or even the presence of her partially significant other invaded the serenity. The passion that flowed was all I could feel. It was as if something out of fairy tales or romance novels. The pure ecstasy of that moment ran all the way through me overwhelming every spec of my being. The eternity it felt like it took to conclude left me breathless. A wide range of thoughts and emotions slapped me back into reality. An orgasmic feeling mixed with pure horror overcame me. It really scared me. Never before had anything had such an impact both physically and mentally to where I noticed nothing but overpowering enjoyment. I only managed a single statement afterwards, one that to this day I fully regret. "Lets never ... do that again." My thoughts of this being my friend who had expressed a lack of intimate interest in me and the fear of what this one kiss had brought up in me are the only things I can think of that made me say that.
Never before and never since (and this was many years ago) have I felt such a thing. Not a word has ever been spoken between us of that moment and all things considered it might have been much of nothing for her. But, for me it is a memory I will never forget and if I could ever find someone who can make me feel that way again I would consider myself blessed. |