Later on I went to school and then on to jr. high school. But at 7th grade I lost alot of friends because I didnt want to do things out of peer pressure. They started to smoke and do drugs and drink and lose their virginity, but I chose not to follow that path.
So at that time I had no friends and I had a broken home. I was soo depressed I wanted to take my life. One Friday I planned to shoot myself in the head, but later on I had a cousin who went to an apostolic church, call me up and invited me to a youth rally. I went thinking that I would see all these people and be more depressed and envious of their lives, but as soon as I got there, the young people showed alot of interest and actually started to want to know more about me. I was shocked, because all my life I thought people saw me as a loser and a failure. But they wanted to have fellowship with me and that really made me happy! That people would actually care to make me their friend.
So later on that year I started going to their youth rallies, then onto sunday school, and then finally to sunday evenings. Months later I got baptised in the name of Jesus and after that I got the holy ghost. Never in my life have I known that there was someone who thought I was cool, that loved me inspite of my faults and failures. That this person actually loved me when no one else would. Someone who loved me all my life since I was born. I got to know this person better and He showed me that there was a better life. I heard of him before, but never the actual truth of who he is. But I know who that person is now, the one who loved me more than anyone, the one who never left me or broke my heart. His name is Jesus.
So it has been 6 1/2 years I have been in this church. I went through many changes and many problems. I have backslid a few times only to come back with a deeper love. I have been changed from being shy to someone who is outgoing & bold in prayer and praise. Im now a singer, prayer warrior, and a young minister at my church. My pastor is Rev. Kenneth Harmon and I attend the Apostolics of West Helena.
