Sometimes I wish

I could find a way to be above it all

Far above everything

Even better if I could lose all memory

Of my existence

~

Of course

This would mean losing

All of my happy memories

And I have many of those

~

I'd forget

My friends

And

Family

I'd forget my future

goals

And past

achievements

~

All of it would be

lost

to

nihilism

~

But what you don't know

Can't hurt you right?

~

And if I were to lose

All of my good memories

I'd in turn loose

All of my bad

~

A welcome release

~

Where is these sad little thoughts coming from tonight?

Where has my zany blather gone to?

~

I don�t know

!

I left my zane in the same place as my happy thoughts.

Perhaps tucked down the side of the couch

With the loose change

Chip crumbs

And other less welcome things

~

'A Warm Place' by Nine Inch Nails

~

This instrumental

always has a way

of making me feel

As if I'm standing at the edge of a cliff

In the middle of the night

~

And s t r e t c h e d out before me

Is a sea so

deep

and

black

It makes me feel

incredibly

small

and

alone

~

As if everyone else

in the world

has gone

somewhere else

And left me

behind

~

And because there's a cold breeze

Coming from the ocean

I long for a warm place

To take away

the

sadness

and

fears

Of being trapped forever

~

On the edge of this cliff

~ 

In

the

dark

~

teetering

~

and

so

utterly

alone