It's starting.
Scared...so I don't move.
I'm going to lose.
Oh God.
The racing heart,
too weak to stand.
I want to scream.
Like that will make time stop.
How-
Do I say goodbye,
Do I?
I'm at a loss.
Words are everything.
Hurt, need, desire, hope, dispair, disbelief.
I'm stuck.
So frozen.
It's fear:
Of knowing, of loosing, of rejection.
Help me.
There are things I need to say.
But...it's hard.
I never learned this part.
If not now then never.
And I'll lose.