“What is Condemnation?”

devalued by laziness
my head screams for liveliness
to be awakened by a blow
from a distant heart echoed
find the mystery incomplete
trapped in a minuscule world
wondering where to wander
to seek out another peaceful being
light shadows, touching whispers
see your ageless eyes transforming
multiplying in the moonlight
becoming stars to show me my way
I curl like a fetus, run away
not my time, so I miss my chances
cradled by comfort
that lacks the deepest sense
remember swirling colors
into which I dip my head like an ostrich
seeing a bit of everything
feeling a tiny bit complete
or a little less lonely
not sure if I feel a thing
the sky shatters inside me
and I crash to the floor madly
using bones as crutches
and veins as shoelaces
I measure myself, deconstructed
alone in a batcave
diamonds reach and save
so I feel like I’m in space
Earth’s artificial stars, I can hold
and see you, almost be you
but you’re disappearing
so I’m reappearing in the real world
as some figment of God’s imagination
when I see you, you’ll ask
“what is condemnation?”
and I’ll simply dance
muted by insignificance
I’ll spin into multiplicity
making waves in a silent dream
seeing all the love rip at the seams
       --april 27, 2003