Crying in the darkness,
with only my sobs to break the silence.
I suffer with my pain and loneliness,
�cause no one understands my side.
My family won�t forgive me,
They won�t even try.
I just wish that they could see,
my life from the inside.
Confined now to a wheelchair,
Struggling to a find meaning.
Being paralyzed isn�t fair,
is this a life for a human being?
Why did I survive,
the doctor�s butcher blade?
Why didn�t he just let me die,
then live my life in shame?
I miss my family deeply,
my wife, my kids, and all.
When will they come and visit me,
or realize it�s not my fault?
I used to sit and stare,
out the window in our home.
All I have is this chair,
now that I�m on my own.
To watch my kids play in a park,
is what I really wish.
To make sweet love after dark.
and give my wife a kiss.
For now this is just a dream,
a sad one were I weep.
All I can do is try to scream,
and cry myself to sleep.
-Dave Shafto
-January 2002