for decades

I’ve been surrounded

by people

by places

by things

and yet

always

felt completely

alone

always afraid

to get too close

always scared

to let anyone in

my body

aches

from running

from hiding

from pushing away

my heart hurts

from the emptiness

from the desire for more

from the need to be loved

with no restrictions

no restraints

no limits

no boundaries

I long for someone

to look into my eyes

peer into my soul

hold me close

and never ever

want to let me go

 

10/16/00

revised 8/23/01