tear filled eyes

a heart of pain

look me in the eyes

theres only me to blame

constantly keeping my distance

pushing you further away

I knew eventually I’d lose

just wish it wasn’t today

everything I ever wanted

all that I ever dreamed for

was right here before me

couldn’t have asked for more

tears stream down my pale face

my breathing becomes shallow

every part of my inside aches

my demeanor sullen and mellow

this time I finished last