since you entered my life

my mind has become a whirlwind

of thoughts, of emotions

of wants and needs

i had decided i no longer

wanted love, nor did i need it

from another person

i was set in my decision

no more need for affection

no more desire for intimacy

no more attachments to trip me up

i felt safe

without love and attachments

there was no chance for hurt

from the moment i met you

i began to question my decision

i began to rethink my thoughts

i find myself wanting to know

anything and everything about you

i find myself wanting to be

near you, curled up next to you

i have almost completely forgotten

what it was i was fighting

what it was i was hiding from

and wondering, if i was really right

 

8/31/00