I gaze upon your gentle face

like candy to my eye

I peer into your big brown gaze

and this is what I see

I see a lost little boy

trying to find his way

clothing torn and tattered

after fighting loves lost battles

I see pain and fear

resting deep inside

hiding the hope

hiding the desire

hiding the want

to just be loved

for everything that you are

and everything that you will become

I see wounded self esteem

masking the desire to not only love

but to allow you, yourself, to be loved

I see a little boy who turns in fear

and runs, quickly away

when faced with a battle of life

out of fear that he might perhaps lose

yet never acknowledging that he may win

but most of all, my love

I see a beautiful man

filled with a soul

whose waters run as deep as the abyss

wanting and needing to be loved

to be understood

I see intelligence beaming

through those big brown eyes

a world of knowledge waiting to be shared

I look into your heart, my love

and I see the things

that no one before me saw

I see your compassion, your strength

I see your loving affections

I see your intelligence,

I feel your soul, my love

reaching out to me

yet still afraid to hold on

not believing in the reality of me

not trusting what I offer

afraid to be hurt

afraid to lose yet another battle

afraid be left standing alone

I see the most amazing person

I believe I’ve ever met

each time, my love

you look into my eyes

 

3/10/02

 

 

 

Dedication: I don’t usually do this.. but this time, I have to.. It may not be much, but this is all I have to say..

I’ve told you a million times, I wish you could see yourself through my eyes.. to the best of my ability, I’ve just given you that gift.. I haven’t given up yet Josh..