trapped inside

for a life time

used and abused

the pushed away

ignored and neglected

unless it was convenient

feelings of sadness

of emptiness, being totally

alone

raced around internally

surrounded by people

but never really included

never quite fit in

never ever understood

always held back

always weighed down

always depressed

a never ending battle

attempting to find happiness

trying to fit in

searching out dreams

eventually

i found all of that

and so very much more

once i stopped

and realized

the only thing holding me back

was me.

 

2/28/00