some times I sit on my own

and my thoughts swirl

and they twirl

and they spin and sputter

around and around

seemingly aimlessly

but eventually

they lead me

to the path

that I need

and on that path

occasionally

I open my eyes

and take a deep breath

and realize I’m there for a reason

and I self evaluate

and come to terms with mistakes

that I’ve made

and those that will continue

until I find the strength

to reach inside of my mind

deep into my soul

and find the courage to change

and I realize that sometimes

I need to be grabbed

with sterness, but never harmed

and shaken softly

while someone peers deep

into my baby blues

often clouded by tears

and shadowed by pain

and tells me

that I will be okay

and that no matter what

no matter my mistakes

no matter my hardships

no matter the chaos I call life

they will still be there

by my side

in the end

 

1/26/02