Unfound Hope

screaming

crying

bleeding

all on the inside

can't you see me

i seem to be

invisible

questionable

inferior

in your mind

you think i walked

away

left

for good

but turn around

there i am

i never left you

stopped caring

understanding

or wanting

to make sure

you were okay

as time went on

fear set in

confusion

unsteadiness

yet i still desired

to stand by

your side

and i wonder

question

scramble

about whether or not

we really lost

everything

all we'd built

desired

wanted

in my bleeding eyes

the mirrors of my soul

the books of my mind

i see it still near

nowhere gone

right in front of us

but i wonder

can we scale

that wall

or do we stand back

and let it all fall?

11/15/94