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| Divine Sins of a Child |
| Welcome to my new home. This is a place where i can share my thoughts and feelings to the rest of the world via Poems and Songs. Although none of them have any perticular format they are an expression of my inner mind. WARNING : If you are disturbed by graphic wording please leave now. |
| Car Ditch |
| Slivers of wood inside your flesh, Painfull clutches of that cardboard dash. Cracked skull and bloody bitch, down and deep inside that rainy ditch. Left alone with that speed and crashed down without that deed. Down and dead to see that bright white light. I never should of done what i tried to do. I never should of passed the darkness through. I never should of looked the other way, Now I sit here and i've got to pay. Red and blue just so near, spinning without a tear.They've seen it before and they'll see it again.We are just another life to them. Down and dead to see my strife, down and dead to never again live my own life. |
| Revenge |
| Sleep with the souls of the dead inside, live with the life of the endless cries. Dont believe the thing they say, for your day will come and they will pay. Take your knife and stalk there dreams, Take your knife and cut there seams. Rip there skin, scrape it away, breath in a bit of decay. Grab there cross and hoist it high, pin there bodies like a fly. Listen to there screams as they cry. Listen to there pain as they hang there heads and die. There just another victum of your fate, just another time, just another date. |
| No Love |
| Just give me some love, a little pat on the back when i cry. It seems you never know when i live and you'll never know when i die. Why cant you believe me when i speak. Why cant you believe me when i freak. Its just another day you didnt know. Its just another way you didnt show. Another way you could show me how to live, show me to love. Another way to abolish the fear that itches my skin. Isnt there some way i can win? |
| Bring Thy Death |
| Pain inside only known to wait. Paining inside thats only known to fate. Pain inside that brings my wake. Wake within this world of death. Death that surrounds and knows no fear. Fear of what it can bring. No emotion of what it kills, lifeless eyes, clear and dead. Breaths of wind, flowing through the strands, bounds of string, holding together what i know. Emotions, feared, death, knowing no reason. Passionate only to clear glass, what it can see through, what it can manipulate and mold. Molding intowhat it is, killing, death, knowing no stars and stripes, knowing no daily gripes. Explosions of feelings, relentless emotions. Strangling fertality, knowing no fate, no date, date to be born, harsh mistress of truth, no love, no emotion, only death. Bring they death, death to truth, truth to death, pain inside, cold streams, drifting, rivers of hope. Bring they death, what to know, what be seen, what be shown, shoved into little boxes and closed from reality. Reality only seen by truth, only seen by you, me, him, far high and far low, death comes and death shows. Bring they death and show truth, come, come now, living peace. |
| Feeling The Love |
| Feeling the world around me change, the fire inside is to much to take. Like a drifitng piece of wood i search for the sea to find the one i love. Just a deep blue sea, searching inside the darkness. Poking the crouds for a familar face, the one i love, the one i need, the one i will alwase see. Just inside, near to be known, fate to rest. I know its true, I know your the best. I've finally found the one i want, the one i need, the one i will rest. Never shot down again, embraced with the straight line of love. Embraced within the passion, the sight, feelings to never disapear. |
| Forgiven Rape |
| This is the first way you only knew, the first way i learned to show you. The first way you passed on through. Deep inside you listened to me as i cried. Cover your ears fo rthey will bleed, I've fucked you up and planted my sead. Hold on tight now here it comes, blood red sacks of hungry lungs. Kissed you hard just to bite your lip, taken that blood into your hip. Drowning those eyes in a sea of red, beaten up with not a tear to shed. Take in a deep breath as i slow, pounding your body without no control. Like a little girl i knew, you lie beneath me, just another to pass on through. here comes the outcome, just a while, crawled away to that pile. Clothes taken in your arms, just come to me without alarm. Tonight you rest my little child, tomorrow i take you for all the while. Till they come and take you away, then I shall pay. For my sins of the mind, For my sins of divine. |
| One Sided Love |
| Like the dreams put inside my head i feel the chains restrain me from your pain. Like the dead i was meant to be, I feel my life slipping away from me. Just to feel the control, the passionate touch you press against my body. Its like i've never seen the world you've put me through. It's like i've never been through the puddly you pushed me through. The vision i see will never be the words i hear, I'll alwase take the shit you put me near. It's just a finger short, Just a finger dead, pushed down to my knee's to give a little head. I was never given recognition for the thoughts i share, I was never given recognition for the life i bear. Love is a word spoken to be true, just a simple lie only known to you. The vision i see will never be the words i hear, just the footsteps that never come near. |
| My Life |
| Cant believe what i see. These illusions are passed unto me. Like a grip of fate i saw the death within those jagged jaws. It came to me in a dream, it was passed onto what i've seen. It is like a nightmare that will never fade, just some other shit i simply made. Its forgiveness for what i cant forget to lose, Its forgiveness for what i cannot forget to prove. Its just a drug i've swallowed whole. Just a rope that dragged my soul, bound my passions, and chained my breath, cut my life untill i choked. Now all i see is the void ahead, a reflection of a life i've never said. It was just a grip of fate i saw, Just like the death within those jagged jaws. |
| Free to Sin |
| Like a dream of fate i slept in blood, waded around and ripped my hood. I tore my flesh and now i bleed. I cracked those chains and now i'm free. Now i'm out and inside this world i rest, only to come to see the best. With my knife i cut you down, hear your screams and let you drown. You listen to the sirens all around, and watch my leave with your single frown. Untill i come another while and take your children for my file. I'll nail there bodies to a wall and scoop out those eyes just to let them fall. Just be glad i left there hair, it smelled so good i wouldnt dare. I feared you'd cry and left them there. But on i go and here i come, snatched just another gun. Will i die? You only wish, I've gotten live till i fucked your bitch. Though you will find in a river of some kind, a confession I have wrote. WIth the blood from that slit across your throat. And with that adress they come to my door. They shall push it in and nail me to the floor, Like a dream of fate i slept, never to wake, never to take. |
| Decieved |
| Ever single moment that passes me by i think about you and wish to cry. Though not a single tear will be shed, not unless you break me down and make me dead. Your so far yet so near, your words echoed are the ones that i hear, on that single hour they make me fear and make me cower. And now i climb that golden thrown, take my seat and hold my own. I know the shit thats hidden now, it will never come through, not even to a single frown. But all i see are the smiles so curved, so soft, so lovely, they'll break me down and snip my nurves, rag my mind untill it burns. You took it, and now its gone, locked away inside your flesh, never to be torn, never to be dressed. |
| Anti-Christs Of Our Nation |
| Anticipation, anti-christs of our nation. Devil horns without that halo, bright white lights that make us stay low. Knives and pain that slit our veins and drag our bodies through the rain. Skin and blood, such a deadly sight, tied to a cross and burned at night. Clad in black, there minds held back, just another through that made them hack. |
| Inside |
| Inside in and inside out, inside my mind i have not a doubt. It may be clear to you but its far from me. Take a look and you'll find insanity. Touch my tongue, such an acidic taste, find my body in all its waste. Its just a word, another phrase, down inside i have no race. Its turth be told, I'm dea to you. I'm just another corpse rotting through. Not a thought, a single dream. I lay there cold inside my torn seams. |
| I Stand Before You |
| I stand before your devil. I stand before your god. I stand before your humanity, nothing seemed so raw. Your religion is a sin, your minds are all the same. Your gods are up so high, invisible to the human cry. You speak your words and pray your life, your words are nothing, just the embodyment of christ. A lie is spread through guilt and sin. Truth only comes from within. Your god is dead, burried inside his white cloud, yet you still stand so ever proud. Cross held high like you'll never die, yet plague surrounds your every touch. I just wish for that much. |
| Virgin Dance |
| I saw you. You saw me. I want you. You need me. You are only one. Taste the Pain. Lick the Flesh.? Drink my vein?s?.? A single night.?? A lasting Hour/? Peak to pleasure how i wish I could devour A single kiss. Moans of fear. Shed a single tear. I kissed your lips. I kissed your mind. Suddenly it is all divine. |
| Mother Dearest |
| You changed my mind, my thoutless skull, ivory white of a once endless null. I cant believe i told you then, about my life and about my sins. Nine years have passed and its just another day. I looked inside and i found my pain. A headache is all it was, a slap in the face as if you sprayed my eyes with lifes mase. And now i'm blind, my life is black, though i hear your words crushing my back. And now i'm paralized, from lifes lessons true. My life is gone and all i wish is i could kill you. Tell me the truth, dont spread your shit. I can see your lies and I can see your just a bitch. You've changed so much, just like me, though in you a child is all i see. Your a glittery blond, a faceless soul, you've changed so much, why i'll never know. Another year or another two, I'll be gone and left without you. Your words so gray, just that night, it changed my mind and what a sight. You'll cry your lieing tears and Pound your truthfull fists, though a bitch of a son is all you'll get. |
| I am Meat |
| I am a deranged piece of meat, a little boy simple begging at your feet. I crawl in your wake and i'll never stand or never hate. I fight you inside your mind, I will eat you and all your kind. I lick you, inside and out, untill you cry and i have no doubt that you fear the words that i speak, the words that i weep. The voices inside my mind that will never seem to go away, sometimes i wish they would stay and guide me through, the worlds i've known inside you. If i step away, you whip and frey the skin that makes me stay. |
| The Way I Live |
| I live like a dirty boy, like a whore, a womans toy. I look like a dirty man, like a scrub, inside my van. I'de invite you to my bed, cushion my blows against your head, fuck you inside your mind with just a few words and you'll know me kind. I'de take my knife and cut you still and hook your skin against your wil untill you cry and weap for me to ender your suffering. |
| Fetus Jar |
| I look into your eyes So bloody red. I see the thoughts inside your head. Your like my son. My demon child. That little grin. It makes me wild. So white and so cold. You bodies dead. So lovely when you beg to be fed. Your like my dog. Chained and bound. A little hound In which my insanity found. I stole your soul And now you lay. Inside my jelly jar. A single grave. |
| Apocalypse |
| The day will come and you will see The sky will form into un-reality Its black and blues Its reds and teals. The sun is blocked Yet your skin still peals Your mind is gone It rots so well Your bones are brittle. To even milk they swell. This is not a god Nor a demon, Angel or Hell Not even a human Will bring the toxins you smell A single day. Equals your numbers low Your exstinct with nothing to show. But pills The insanity that made your foes. Though your death was brought. Not by Ghost or Godly Flesh. Mother Earth has cut your strings. Now your race lay in ragged mesh. She not feared but hated. And now her wrath shows. Your gone and dead. Not even the wind blows. |
| Father Insanity |
| Whats in your realistic skull. Not a mind, not even a fleshy null. You've got no heart, it's cold as steel. Pumping some red shit from your blindness to your heels. I'm surprised you can grip your blade. Your fingers are bent and the tips are freyed. Though you dont slip my writs or pound your fists. Your words are more and i cant take your shit. INsanity is all it is. You've driven me and now i cry not a single tear, but inside i die. I hate your body, I hate your lips. I'll puncture your flesh and take a sip. Its just another year and i leave your sight. But day by day i die from freight. |
| Fateless Frame |
| My life is nothing more than a picture Frame A piece of wood shadowing my endless pain. I hold my fingers and know there raw. Tugging at the brush held between my jaws. Squeezing the wood as you whip my flaws. Though its just another scrach, another discrace. Another color you've slashed across my face. I will never bend to my knee's and i will never get down to beg or please. |
| Easter Bunny |
| There demons in there white coats. Hoping down the bunny rail. Eyes raged like a fire trail. Paws at the end of there rope. Lucky creatures. Never given a single hope. Nose like a pink heart. Twitching as they hand out there ragged tarts. Laced with cocain our minds will go insane. Teeth so sharp, They'll rip your flesh apart. Just for a single day. An easter way. You may celebrate. But they'll make you pay. There demons in there white coats. Hoping down the fire trail. |
| The Cavemans Valentine (1st Person) |
| Take a picture as I bleed Wrap my Soul in gause And never wish for me to see. I am already blind. A black haze infront of my eyes. These are not words that i speak. I am mute A simplified freak. My tongue is raw And black as your seas. It is incapable of speach. Though knows which gods you preach My limbs are neigher ragged Nor torn from bone. Though sewn and woven To what i am now known. I am neither white Black Or yellow snow. I am neither god Nor Demon Or Rageing foe. I host no hell or cloudy heaven. But upon my shoulders the world Rests Twisted and squeezed to its best. Not to my flesh or my wounded heart. Not to my veins in which acid starts. Only to which it burns Inside my white light A tunnel to which gives life or heated rage I am nothing more than a thought A thought within a bent steel cage. |
| A Cavemans Valentine |
| Wrap its soul in gause and never wish for it to see. It is already blind, a black haze infront of its eyes. It speeks no word for its tongue is weak. It is mute, a simplified freak. It is incapable of speach. Though it knows to which gods you preach. Its limbs are neither ragged nor torn from bone. Though sewn and goven to what is known. It is neither white nor black, nor human woe. It is nor god, nor demon, nor raging foe. It hosts no hell nor cloudy heaven. But upon the shoulders the world rests. Twisted and squeezed to its best. Not to its flesh or wounded heart. But to veins in which acid starts. Only to which burns inside our white light. A tunnel to which gives life or heated rage. It is nothing more than a tought. A thought within a bent steel cage. |
| My |
| I found my destiny in a mind in which i use to be. A lobe and a thought, a passion gone raw with such a taste of hatred. It was just another body, just another soul, It was just another being rated by his holy foe. I found my dream, waiting upon the wings, atop the temption and intoxicated liquod. A tooth upon a fang in which the devil is my dream. I found my reason, beneath the mirrored truth. Just a reflection of a boy, a retarted vision in which he used to toy. Father and mother, unholy beasts. Mother and father a righteous feast. I stand before you, i stand before my lies. I stand before him, I stand before my cries. There is truth to what i say. I found my truth but this is my vision, my dream, my reason, my chain. |
| Dieing |
| I'm dieing tonight and no ones here. I'm a lost corpse and a forgotton tear. I tried to survive inside my light, that little glimmer burried alive behind my darkness. It was never easy, these thoughts of mine. Suicide, death, so many crimes. So many actions and so many times. I lay here now, so far behind. It could never turn out a simple way and it could never just let me lay there and fade away. I worried this day would come, these broken bottles pushed away, these countless times i never prayed. This stench of death upon my flesh. This ungodly fear with every step. For i am frail and my skin is weak, my thoughts are numb and i cannon speak. I cry now with my tears of pain. I take these steps, each with shame. Towards my hell, this is my only fame. |
| Evil Bunny With Cold Red Eyes 1 |
| Now my little girl i want you to walkd own the sidewalk and push through that door. I want you to walk down the aisle and to the back of the store. Do you see that little creature, sitting there so eligantly. Its little pink nose twisting so violently. Now reach down inside the cage and lift it to your chest. Its little nose twitches as it rips through your flesh. Its the little white bunny with the cold red eyes, its a demon, now scream, run and cry! |
| Admiration |
| One little morning i saw this girl. Head down with nothing to tell. For once i saw the beauty in one. And decided to have alittle fun. She was only in her midteens. But my mind just twisted and screamed. And i came to this form. I lifted her chin only to adorn. Such gracious lips Such beautifull Eyes. Such matted hair she seemed to cry. But this i desired so. I lifted her up kicking too and fro. She seemed to make such a fuss. Untill I brought her home. I think it was around dusk. The moon was high and shined so bright. Her little body shimmered with fright. I gave her a glass to drink And said goodnight By the morning I saw her dead ..to my delight Now she lays in a tub so full Soaked in white and flesh so bleached. It made me admire how she'd keep. |
| Evil Bunny With Cold Red Eyes 2 |
| Now my little dear. I want you to sit and hear. I want you to stare off into the night. I want you to sit as you hear my story Of light, Of Death, Of Mindless torment. And wandering blights. These little childrens. Ghosts of the night. They controll this creature you see. A creature so mindless. A creature so deadly. It could only of been Born of fire and torchure is he. These little children control him now He wanders the forests and cities With a frown. Little pink nose snifing you out. Bright red eyes glowing That would certainly make you pout. He is so michivous and each hop silent Blood soaked paws. Leaving a trail of this tyrent. |
| Simple Days |
| I rememebr the days so way back when. Around the corner in a cloud of heaven. It was a simple life, they were simple days. But now i'm surrounded by everyones sinister ways. Someone help me from these times. Someone rid me of all there crimes. I remember when i could just look around. But now i'm noticed as i stumble into the profound. Dancing around the lonely bar and sipping up all my bright stars. Blurred thoughts of our simple ways. Free from our simple days. SO maybe tomorrow i'll look through this haze. Maybe tomorrow i'll find my way. Someone help me from these times. Someone rid me of all my crimes. Rid me of just one sin. To these words that come from within. |
| Seven Deadly Sins |
| Take my hand and let me lead you inside the minds of the deadly sins. First take teh path of pride and take it slow, your mind is swelling and its about to explode. Then take a twist and look at me, envy me for what you are about to see. This little light inside a cold glass jar, flickering, it is your scars. Take that plate, so shined with steel, covered with an utterly delicious meal. Gluttony is our next stop of this frightfull deal. So filled and stuffed with hate, they go hand in hand with your rape. Lust and anger, such beautifull sins, delightfull things like demon kin. And as you fight with greedy palms, ripping and snatching i'll be waiting for your call. But there so alive and dead, you've commited each of these sins. You lay there now covered in filth and now i may finally begin. First your pride is broken, so squeezed. Then your envy drowned and freezed. For such a glutton soul, i have a meal for you, little critters stuffed down your hole. For your lust your burned alive, dont you wish you hadnt strived. To this next deadly sin, anger is where i begin, i take a limb, maybe two and stretch untill its ripped from you. As with fire your parts are dipped and slowly scorched to boil and drip. With a final wish goodbye. I hang you there and drop your soul into such a deadly hole. Filled with critters of hissing grace, twisting and biteing, a deadly taste. |
| Morbid Beauty |
| Morbid beauty is such a lie, we've all tasted it and were about to die. With each stich we cant believe, how we were so rudely teased. And with each step so wobbled and strayed. They are like mindless steps twoards there grave. Dirt filled lips sewn so tight, closed off to there godly light. And with eyes so blind, squeezed tightly shut. Soldered and scorned, like a mutt. Slaves to dogs and dogs to lords, shackled and chained, dragged in hordes. An infection to our race, such morbid beauty that only the rich taste. Fallen down beneath the framed pictures of there lives. Locked away from little tears and whimpering cries. For if they could hear and speak the truth, there mindless groans would bury our youth. Not the elders for which I speak, but the children which cried freak. For the children that pillaged and raped with there perverted thoughts and sinister hate. Morbid beauty is all our fate. |