All these years later
I still look back on then
I wonder if I had changed things
if I could be happy again.
I'm tired of the emptiness
I am tired of the pain
oh how I wish in my heart
that it would all just go away.
I sit here waiting for an answer to come
wishing it would fall down to me
knowing even if I want it to
that it will never be.
There is a hole open inside of me now
that feeling has been here before
but I promised myself that the last time I felt it
I wouldn't let it do this anymore.
I just want to be happy
though I'm not sure I know what it is
all I know is I cant do this anymore
I cant go on living like this.
I want to be someone
I want to be everything
I'm tired of hearing
only what they make me.