I thought I knew what I wanted
I thought I knew who I was
and even now that its all over
I cant really say I fucked it up.
I cant say that I regret it
none of it was really bad
even if it never really happened
it was the best I've ever had.
Your kiss was the best I've never tasted
your hugs the best I never received
I guess even though you never existed
you're all that was in me.
You wanted me to let go of you
and I'll never understand why
I knew it would be hard
but the best I could do was try.
It was hell for me to do
but I think I'm finally done
I think I've gotten past you
but I never really won.
I never really got to have you
that was kinda my goal
but this waiting around for nothing
I guess it just gets old.
Sometimes though I still miss you
and sometimes I still want you back
I guess it will always be this way
you're just the best I never had.