I wish I knew what to say
but somehow I can not find the words
everything I thought right is now wrong
im sick of the way I have to hurt.
I am determined to be strong inside
but I really don't know if I can do it alone
I guess if I have to eventually I will learn
and I'll be able to be proud of the things I've done.
I have done a lot of thinking while I was gone
inside I know now what I have to do
in ways I am proud to be a woman
and I believe now that dreams can come true.
Deep down I want to do this with Billy
I wish all the time for it to come true
but I understand now even if he doesnt
that somehow I can make it through.
I don't have to show anyone my weakness
I can't let them know they get to me
I'll somehow hold it all inside here
I don't want for anyone to see.
In my heart I wish he would love me
but I guess I'll never know unless he tells
I've always said before someone can love you
inside you have to love yourself.
A woman needs things she can be proud of
she has to be happy with the beauty that she is
but even though I say it now to you
I really cant think of me like this.
I want my daughter to know she is beautiful
inside and out no matter what anyone says
I want her to be proud of herself
as a female for everything that she is.
I know I have to do this for her
and all the young mommys out there
I want them to know they don't need anyone else
because most of the young daddys don't even care.
Every woman is special to me
just for the gifts she holds inside
for she is the heart of the world
it doesnt matter her shape or size.
I need to see myself as a woman
and not for the nothing he made me feel
maybe then I can find beauty inside of me
and knowing that I'll be able to heal.
I still want my Billy here with me
he makes me feel all that I really am
I believe in my strength that I can do it alone
but I really want to do it with this man.