I guess I am going back again
it doesn't matter how bad I want to stay
I think I have been gone long enough
to make all the pain go away.
I hope it doesn't come back again
but I know memories are just waiting there
I think I have built up strength enough
but still inside I am scared.
I wish there was someone there to hold me
but the only one I would want is Billy
I know he wont be there when I go
I dont even know if he will have me.
I wish I could be happy again
but he is the only one who makes me feel that way
I guess I could go the other way to Florida
if I knew he really wanted me to stay.
I dread this ride so much
I'm so scared of the pain waiting there at home
I thought I could lose it
I am so sick of being alone.