Thought I knew it all
till I opened my eyes once again
thought I saw my heaven
but you were joking then.
Ive felt every kind of hurt
cried every kind of tears
Ill never be okay
I havent been for years.
I hide it all away
so no one else can see
I have been so much
and you cant come in me.
I havent lost my dreams
but I cant live there in that place
I just dont want anymore
theres too much I cant erase.
I dont know why Im saying all this
theres nothing that I want
I brought it on myself
it never was your fault.