~Non-existing "You and Me"

Apon my lips i taste your kiss
apon my clothes i smell your scent
inside my arms i feel your touch
and yet i sense these things so much
and yet they dont exist.

I thought you had the illnes like my own
but you left me here all alone.
left me sitting all alone, in the darkness
of our home.

You left me sitting here with all our memories all our thought of fun
and still i sense you here with me and yet youre still just a memory.

I thought this thing would keep you here with me i thought the illness would keep you here and not make you flee

I was wrong and so i sit alone in the darkness holding on to what i thought we had
i thought we shared that illness that they say is true that they say made me and you but you, i never had.

that illness that they call love, i thought itd be enough
you said you were infected like i said i knew i was

Im lost in just a memory my mind traveling trying to free me from the life that was not to be
But ill wait in my lost hysterics and hope that you will see ill never live again, not free, from this life of a non-existing "you and me".