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| TRAINSPOTTING |
| Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life. I chose not to choose life: I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who need reasons when you've got heroin? |
| Trainspotting. The feeling after I saw this movie is very weird for me. It make me wanna throw up, the story had nothing to do with ugly stuff. But whenever this kind of feeling come to me after seeing a movie. I can tell just this movie is really good, I called it "real expressionism" Youngster gang with their heroine, stealing stuff, fuck around people, and cheating on the gang. Ewan Mcgregor has become my favorite movie star since "Moulin Rouge". In this movie he did a good jon as the leading rule. There is something in the movie that haunting me somehow. Heroine, think of your best sex multiply with thousand still couldn't compare with what it give you. Is that really true? The question stick on my mind. I have never seen heroine for real not only once in my lifetime. I never keen to see it or touch it or smell it or taste it. But this movie make me dream of it. Think of drugs, everybody who know me know that I hate drugs. Any illegal drugs, that could bring too much of problem and possibly take away freedom. Freedom... the only thing that I have. I drink occasionally, I smoke mental cigarette and that's it. When I was in high school, in one class, teacher told us that the worst drug on earth is heroine. Most powerful, most danger, easy to get addicted, and easily could kill you. So...whenever I think or heard the word "Heroine" only thing I have in my mind is fear. But this movie TRAINSPOTTING keep repeating the line that "heroine , it's better than sex" One night I dreamt that I was in a room with some stranger that they doing it. I asked for it, once they inject inside me I pass out. In my dream I wake up and they told me that I slept for 7 hours. I pass out before I could feel anything, so I ask for more. But before they can give me again... I wake up for real. Weird isn't it? I'm awake and think... heroine. What 's on earth that make me dream of it? Heroine... equal with committing suicide. Only one time I will die for sure. I know it , I know. I also wanna know... is it really better than sex? i don't know where I could find that kind of drug anyway. I don't know how to cook it, I don't dare to inject it inside my vain myself. Anyway... it's not worth to know. Having beloved in a long distance, lack of sex. Too busy , too lazy to even masturbation this lately. And the movie that make me dream that way. TRAINSPOTTING is just another super cool movie. And my dream is just ... a dream. |
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