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K1 VISA FOR USA

I'm going to America with fiance visa.
So much things that they required to apply for it.
Not only my information, background for the past 15 yrs.
Places that I lived,my work, my family , informatiom of my mother and father that I didn't even know about them.
Micheal said all this things will bring me back to the history to the past that I've been avoiding it for too long.
He is obviously true. For the first time in years that I have to dial the phone to get contact with my mom.
Asked her for the document, she is a bit surprise that why should they need her information.
Well... I don't know what to answer her, only the embassy could tell why they need it.
There is no connection between us for too long.
We were semi stranger for too long.
She never has to know how am I doing, what am I doing, or how many times that I was in the hospital.
Only because I will go to America, I have to talk with her again.

Micheal and me fought over this issue for many times.
I was too lazy to get the document, seem like I didn't pay attehntion on it.
Before the document, I will have to make up my mind to talk with many people that I have been avoiding them.
That's the difficut part... I get over it a bit.
I already talk with mom, then I will have to start to find the family of my father.
Years...I never talked with them, when I went back to my hometown.
Often I ride the motorbike passed their house, I never bother stopped to say HI

This sound like I am a mean person,ungrateful.
Family of my father side has never concern me as a member of their family so far.
Even when they saw me somewhere in my hometown, walk passed me in the market.
All they did are just give me a glance and walk away.
Following the culture of this country, as a younger person, a new generation.
I should be the one who walk to them and say HI.
Something inside tell me not to... I don't have to do that.
I can stay alive without them, I am what I am now it has nothing to do with them.

My adopted family is seem like the only family that I really have.
I had a difficult time talking with my first sister for a while cause she get angry with me for some reason.
For the past 9 months I called hom to get the news of family through my neice.
Today I called home again at my neice's mobile, my sister happended to be around.
For the first time that I can talk with her, without she yelling on the conversation.
That's the good sign, and that make me realise that family is always family.
No matter how bad I was, no matter what happen, I am the one of their family.
Their loves never change, I knew it.

The company the help us out making visa will not start utheir process untill they get all the document.
INS or embassy don't need everything for now.
But the policy of this company, they need it.
This will make things slow cause so many place I have to go,
paper of my mom is not something that I can get just a phone call order.

I can tell people I know that I'm working on the visa right now.
When I will be able to go? Not a clue.

Fiance visa means after my arrival I will have to get marry within 90days in order to stay longer than that.
After married I will get the resident card, years after that I will get a green card to be american citizen.

Time goes so quick, I first met Micheal in April, fell in love on each other somewhere between May-July.
Half of a year now that I knew this man... do I know him very well?
Hmm... I know him much enough to risk my life in another country that I have never been with.
He came back here often, in July, September, and will be here again in November.
We talked on the phone everyday... sometime nice and sweet, sometime fought over, sometime even cried.
But we have never really stay together longer than a week.
I wish so bad that he could come and stay longer than this.
But it is the best that he can do right now. I must accept.
Longer time in real... we will learn to know each other much better.
Then it will be easy to say "YES" on the wedding party.
Right now...I admitted that I do scare... that I will make a wrong decision on my life again.

I wanna know him better, I want him to know me better.
I don't want us to get marry if we will end up hating each other.

Micheal promise me that when he come back again in January, he will be able to stay longer.
That's sound wonderful for me... I'm looking forward for that.
And this finace visa won't be just the visa for travelling, it will be for the wedding as it suppose to be.