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--- IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE--- If you love someone because you think he or she is really gorgeous. then it's not love...it's "Infatuation"... If you love someone because you think you shouldn't leave him bacause others think that you shouldn't then it's not love...it's "Compromise"... If you love someone because you think that you cannot live without his touch then it's not love...it's"Lust"... If you love someone because you have been kissed by him then it's not love...it's "Inferiority complex"... If you love someone because you cannot leave him,thinking that it would hurt his feeling then it's not love..it's "Charity" If you love someone because you share everything with him then it's not love..it's "Friendship" but if you feel the pain of the other person more than him even he is stable and you cry for him... that's "LOVE" if you get attracted to other people but stay with him without any regrets that's "LOVE" if you let him go,knowing that he has to go but he doesn't want to that's "LOVE" I get this from one forwarded mail ... after read it over and over. I pretty much agree with what they say. I'm in love... well...I'm always in love cause I drove my life with that. Loving something...loving someone... all the time. There are so much... there are too much of feeling and memories in my mind. Times goes,role changed... everything moving in circle sometime. And the one who got leading role in my life currently is a man name Michael Collins. Who is he? ...American man from Texas, 41yrs old, long blond hair, blue eyes...etc... Ignore those information, cause it just how people define others. My definition for him is "Me in a man version!" We are so much alike in many ways, so we got connected ... easy and fast. First I was confuse...that actually I falling in love with a guy or myself. As the time goes, we learn to know each other more and more, and I know that even tho we are so much alike, but still we are difference person. He is not a perfect man...he did good and bad things. So do I,,, The important thing is everything are acceptable with understanding. Love is a beautiful thing... I'm in love, it should be good for me. But it hurt some people that they wish they could have a leading role in my life but they didn't. It hurt me too somehow... but it's time to make a decision. I'm getting into the relationship, I'm serious, I wanna make it last, I wanna be honest. Honest with myself, with him and with all the people that knowing me. But if this honest hurting someone...I do apologise...sincerely Michael might not be the luckiest guy cause me in real life is someone that totally crazy. I'm not a moody person, I mostly smile, keep saying I'm fine...whatever it comes and goes or harm me I say... doesn't matter.I'm opened...but not everyone. But the thing is if you not know me well.You will never know what I'm thinking. Cause we are so much alike, hopefully it won't take long for him to be able to read me. We still have a long way to walk together ... To a man who called himself..."secret devoted admirer" I really do apologise... I know you understand everything I have said in a mail to you and please bless us. To a man who get mad and try to create problems for me cause I choose to have my future without him. "You can do whatever you want, I have no fear of getting hurt or die, cause in this lifetime I have been hurt and die alive for many times, I know nothing much about you and you don't know me at all, and I wonder if you really do know me... will you do the same thing that you going to do or not?" I never have any enemy and I don't keen to have one. From someone you loved,you turn me to be your enemy. You are not an enemy for me my dear,you don't wanna be a memory neither a friend then you are no one and nothing for me. Kill me if you want to, that would be the most precious present that someone could ever give me. I'm crazy....I told you... Well... Michael is also a poet... he wrote many poems and sent it to me. Here is an example of what he wrote...this one for me,before he left to home. in just eight days of my life i feel as if you have given me eternity. i feel like a flag flying in the sun. i feel like the stars and the moon and the planet have been rolled into one when i look at you i see the universe: all the trees in the forest, all the clouds in the sky, all the stones on a moutain, all the beauty in this life, and these things are more beautiful, because you are alive. if eight days is our strory i'll never get to the end because you are the character i could never forget. Hmm... no matter what it takes and how long would it be, I will do my best for this love. |
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