| 26th June 2003 |
| Sunrise...I sleep at the sunrise time for a week now. So...skinny... too lazy to get out and eat. A week... I have eat properly only once. Only once that I really enjoy my meal...korean food. I have never eat korean food for such a long time. And I feel so good to eat it again... proper dinner then party. Baileys, tequila and wine...tipsy and headache but it's ok . So much fun...first time in years that I see one of my girlfriend get drunk. And she became really funny...:-) I think I feel a bit better now. My hands still fist while I sleep tho but not too hard anymore now. Try to get ways to relax... My problem is mostly from being alone � I�m ok when I�m with others tho. Friends will see me totally fine, fresh and normal as long as I don�t say anything about that. So� I try not to be alone so much. Someone say � Bangkok is ruin my life� it�s so much pollution and traffic. 10 millions people in the same town and I got only few close friends. Walking on the street�I see only stranger or if lucky I will see some acquaintance. That way it will make me feel cold. What can I say, I love this city. I feel more like home than the place that I come from. It is the variety of life style, of people, of places to go. And I can spend my 365days in a year totally difference if I�m not too lazy. Hmm� guess I will need more money to do that tho�lol .. hahaha. But somewhat �I think I will need to relocate sometime. Get some fresh air�swim in the sea, take spa course and bath in the jacucci with a glass of wine�hmm.. I�m in dream again. The great thing that happen in last week is I finally found the melody for my song. I can sing it for the first time and I write another song too. Feel so good to be able to write again tho. And here is the beginning of my new song �. �Living in dream�nothing is what it seem� Want a full version? I guess you gotta bu cd�hahaha� Good day! |