| 1st June 2003 |
I had a party last night... a small pub somewhere in Bangkok. It's not a gay bar but most of the cutomer are gay and lesbain. We had a big table... cause all of us were there. Script writer, producer, director,actor,production designer,stylish,columnist,photographer,costume designer. Everyone were there, if there is a homophobia put a bomb at that pub last night I think he or she should be regret to loose a kind of people who willing to creat something beautiful for this planet all the time. So much fun...everybody danced and I had a long dance too. I can't remember when is the last time I had party with so much of friends like that. And I felt like the place is our. When it came nearly at the time that the place will close...I got a number of one lesbain girl. She asked" Do you have a boyfriend?" I take a long puase and smile...I don't know what should I say to her. I had so many male homosexual friends, our table had 12 people in totall I'm the only girl ...all the rest are gay. She must think that I'm a homosexaul of course. Unfortunately I'm not. I'm an extrreamly heterosexual and I do like myself this way. And today I watched 3 movies at home. "Caligula",roman movie about one king name Caligular Ceasar. Very beautiful movie ...even it's quite a lot of blood and sex on screen. "Pornographer", french movie about a porn flim maker who seen too much of sex scence and finally he got no excite about it anymore, comparing with his son who ran away from home after he found out about his father's career, the son is so fresh and young, he just had his first sex and get marry with that girl he fell in love with while that father separate with his wife and has no feeling of sex anymore. The movie goes very slow... I almost fell asleep but I didn't. Then the third movie is "Things you can see by looking at her" Stories of 4 women. Hmmm.... there is nothing touched me much enough to speak about, just another simple drama stories with talented actresses and that's it. Well...everything seem to be fine. I'm doing fine., fine , fine. There is something interupted ..but I don't know how to explain. No...actually I know how to explain but, I don't think it will be appropriate to say so. It is a world's no smoking day...I smoke 3 packs of cigarette for that. Good day....for all of you. |
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