| 7th April 2003 |
| It has been a hard time. A very confusing time. For the last 2 weeks , I spend my life like I have nothing to loose and possibly die in any minuite. Strange, something make me feel like I will die very soon. I don't know why... is it because of Wars, Sars or Leslie Cheung? Try to get away from myself... hanging out with people. That could help ....just for a moment. The feeling buried deeply in my heart. The situation that I avoid to accept or even talk about it ...with no one...not even me. I thought ...listening to others stories might be a good way...so I can get away from myself... get away from my own thought that become more and more confuse ...unfortunately ... it's not really a good way. Stories...even it 's not mine... but it's remind me thousands of pictures in my head. Wounded mind, weak soul, bring sickness to my body. I feel really that I will definately gonna die in a day or two. I can't breath...I can't eat... and I can't go home. A beautiful come along... lit the light in my dark soul. But that light ...brighten up the reality that I don't wanna see, be with or even accept that it is exist. Anyway...I'm glad to see you...you are like the fallen angel in my arms. Thank you .... |
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