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| 14th January 2003 |
Lately I feel like I'm a little bird ... looking for something to experiment and learn I've been reading a lot. Reading for me is another form of open your mind to listen the opinion of others ...as a human ...same species creature. I've read a story of someone in pantip.com a gay man ...with very adventurous minded, so kind and very funny. Can't beleive that so many people get "addicted" with his story and keep asking him to write more and more. I'm at home...watching a dog and a cat played together. Thinking about get a fish pond...I leave my fish with a friend in Bangkok. My friend told me that it tranfer from red color to white...I don't know why. It's funny...when I was in Bangkok...so lonely. I try to called every friends I had..but they are all busy. When I'm arrive here...and feel good. Friends called and ask me to go back. I will go back ...when I'm ready...when I'm strong enough. One of my friend committed suicide last night. Fortunately she alive cause one of her friend came to visit. Now she is in the hospital...I pray for her to get well soon both physically and mentally. I was committed suicide once... 3 years ago. She is the one who save my life. I wish I were there to be with her...but I really can't now. I understand now...when friends are too busy and not avilable for some reason...what I have to do is try to understand and forgive them. I love you. |
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