(to the tune "I Hung My Head" by Sting) (Feb 2007)
Early one evening with time to kill
I went to the store to rent "Kill Bill"
I saw a young couple ahead in the aisle
They were speaking of werewolves, I listen awhile
The more that I listened, the more that I thought
He surely was kin, like it or not.
But the way he was speaking, the things that he said...
I hung my head, I hung my head.
I set of hoping to get him to stop
So I showed off my glyphs, it was that or a whallop
I set into motion events I regret
I risked the Veil and endangered the Sept
His expression remained neutral, but the fear you could smell
You'd think that I'd shown him his own personal hell
He turned with his girlfriend and casually he fled
I hung my head, I hung my head.
All through the summer, I'd threaten, he'd hide
Why didn't I speak? You might say it was pride.
I had my suspicions by the threats that he'd made
Of what he might be, but little mind I'd paid.
I thought that I had everything well in hand
Til that night that I found him, too weak to stand.
What made me help rather than leaving him for dead?
I hung my head, I hung my head.
Now my actions have consequences, I have a price to pay.
For my careless deeds and my Caern rishing way
I've since killed the namebreaker, no easy task
Just before our battle, this question he did ask:
When tales were sung which would I be?
Hero or Villian, well it's neither you see
For my deeds I've been named Outcast, to Fenris I'm dead.
I hung my head, I hung my head. (repeat and fade)
(to the tune "I'm Not Made of Steel" by Michael Bolton) (Feb 2007)
Under this moonlit sky, I feel Gaia's rage
And now this Sept that I betrayed, feels very much like a cage.
But I continue on this journey, trying to ignore how I feel.
I'm not made of steel... I'm not made of steel
Despite the wisdom of my learning
and all the strength that I possess
Still there are moments I wish I could go back to
There are moments I regret
But those are things beyond my power
And my dreams are beyond my reach
Oh your eyes deceive;
These words I speak do tell the story inside
So don't believe the strength that you see
It's only the face of my pride
Ch: I'm not made of steel... I'm not made of stone
I can't be anything more that I'm made of
I can't do it all on my own
I'm a Garou - war and battle is all I know
I believe I can save the world on my own
That don't mean that I can
I can bend, I can break , I can feel.. I'm not made of steel.
They tried to teach me to wear my armour
But what they taught was just a lie
There's a price to be paid for denying
My weakness, every tear I never cry.
"Don't ever show, don't let them know
Your weakness, you can never reveal"
You ask my why I try to hide
The pain you don't think I can feel
Chorus
So don't believe the strength you see
It's only the face of my... only the face of my pride.
I'm not made of steel. I'm not my made of stone
(repeat chorus and fade)
I'm Outcast today
Made a big mistake and have been renounced
And I have to be strong
Strong to face the life that's ahead of me
From here on there'll be insults and jeers galore
I'll be called a traitor, banned from every door
But I'll try. Oh Gaia, I'll try to carry on!
I look to the moon
The light of her face sparks my memories
Some happy some sad.
I think of childhood dreams and the friends I've had
"They lived happily forever" so the story goes
But somehow I missed out on that tale so told
But I'll try best as I can ... to carry on!
A notion to redeem myself came into my head
It sang to me this song of hope and this is what it said.
(It said)
Go fight the Wyrm. Go prove yourself.
Go show your strength to him.
Go fight the Wyrm. Go prove yourself.
Go show your glory to him.
Go fight the Wyrm. Go prove yourself.
Go show your honour to him.
Go fight the Wyrm. Go prove yourself.
Go show your dedication to him.
I thought that I was destined to forever be Outcast
But now I've got this got in mind to make up for my past.
(I'm going to)
Go fight the Wyrm. Go prove myself.
Go show my strength to him.
Go fight the Wyrm. Go prove myself.
Go show my glory to him.
Go fight the Wyrm. Go prove myself.
Go show my honour to him.
Go fight the Wyrm. Go prove myrself.
Go show my dedication to him.
Every night I lay awak and hope that there's forgiveness
And every day I stand alone as folk turn from my in hatred
All the spirits and legends I honoured in my youth,
Have spurned and turned me away
And I feel this empty place inside
So afraid that I've lost my faith.
Show me the way, show me the way
Take me tonight to the river
And wash my dishonour away
Gaia, please show me the way..
And as I shlowly drift to sleep, for a moment dreams are sacred
I close my eyes and dream of battle with Fenris still as my guide
That I wake up each morning and almost forget 'til I look to another and see the hate.
And I keep on hoping for forgiveness
So afraid that it just won't come.
Show me the way, show me the way
Bring me tonight to the mountain
And take all my failings away
And show me the way.
And if I see your light, show I believe?
Tell me how will I know?
Show me the way, show me the way
Take me tonight to the river
And wash my weakness away
Show me the way, show me the way
Give me the strength and the courage
To believe that I'll get there someday
Gaia, please show me the way.
Every night I lay awake and hope that there's forgiveness