The Poetry Of Ruth Niehaus

The Brilliant Madness

(Life With Bi Polar Disorder)

By Ruth Niehaus

I cannot seem to sleep enough

To make the world a better place

or erase the tears that stain my face

The dark days just won't go away

No matter how many pills I take

or number of smiles that I fake.

This is my life, I must live it

There is no such thing as getting well

I must learn to live within this hell.

But not all the days are bad

I'm not always sad

and those are the days that I live for.

Little Surprises

By Ruth Niehaus

Love is like a cat

you don't know

its there

until you step

on its tail.

Turning Tides

By Ruth Niehaus

You've made me what I am today

I somehow doubt you're proud

I often wonder if you could find

Me if I stood within a crowd

The pain you planted is ebbing

Like a tide gone out to sea

But the doubts of my importance

Still live deep inside of me

I'm sure I've disappointed you

Even though I tried hard not to

I guess that makes us even

For I'm disappointed in you

You weren't the best of parents

I'm not sure you even tried

It's so easy to put the blame on me

When it's your own failings you wish to hide

I hope that I do it better

When it finally it comes to be my turn

The difference between you and me

Is that I intend to learn.