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| Broken Hearted He�s an addiction. Your addiction. You pull up a chair and resign yourself to another night alone, another night in front of the television. And then there he is�smiling, laughing�and holding onto her hand. So many nights you�ve found yourself sitting here alone, watching another one of these dumb awards shows. But if you were the one on his arm�you have a feeling you wouldn�t find it quite so dumb. But you�you will never be on his arm. Because now he has Michelle. Michelle, who is gorgeous. Michelle, who he loves. Michelle, who makes his smile reach his eyes again. And you? You�re just the person that has always been there to pick up the pieces when some girl broke his heart. You�re just the one that he has always turned to. You�re just the one who stood by him all these years. No one special. You used to be able to make him smile like she does. But then Jenny broke his heart and his beautiful smile was hidden away. Until Michelle came along. Michelle. The girl that he loves. You know he loves her. She�s not like Jenny and Cindy and Dana. You knew those relationships wouldn�t last. But Michelle. It�s different with Michelle. You know he loves her. You know he loves her because you know him. You always have known him like no one else could. But lately knowing him hasn�t been enough. Not for you. And that really makes you wonder� When on earth did he become your everything? You see him on that screen, gazing at her like she�s the most perfect creature on this earth. When he loves, he really loves. You can see the love in his deep blue eyes even from across a television screen. And your eyes burn with tears that you won�t cry. Because you know you have no reason to cry about this. You have no right. You have no claim on him. And it�s not like he even knows that he�s breaking your heart�over and over and over again. Your pride won�t let you tell him that you want him�that you need him. Your pride makes you convince yourself that this is just a stupid crush, a silly obsession. But sitting there, seeing him with her�your heart bleeds. And that�s when you realize that� You love him. You love him! That wonderful beautiful man that you�ve only known as a friend for so many years, you�love�him. You always have loved him�and you always will! For a moment a bright smile crosses your face, as you close your eyes and picture him smiling just for you. Like he used to. When things were simple. When you were the only girl that could make his smile reach his eyes. Back before he even knew what love really was. You remember those smiles�and your heart melts. But then the moment passes. Your eyes open and stare blankly downward, as your head shakes sadly from side to side. A tear rolls slowly down your cheek, and you brush it away violently before others can follow. But they come anyway. Because, then it really hits you. You love him� But he loves Michelle. And then any and all questions vanish from your mind, as if to make room for the only question that matters� What do you do when the only man you have ever loved, the only man you ever will love�what do you do when that man loves someone else? |