Why did she have to do it? Why did Jill have to do this? Will was my best friend here and she sent him home. She should have sent me instead. I don't deserve to be here anymore. The only reason Will's gone is because he defended me. If he haden't done that, he could still be here. I'll never forgive myself.
I hope she's happy right now.
Daniel is devistated. Poor thing, I feel so bad. It was the worst vote-off ever. We tried to get rid of Jill in the begining but we were the only three to vote for her. I knew she was nothing but trouble from the start. I council children like her, they're so cold. They have no heart. Most of them had a rough childhood though. They were either malested or beaten when they were young and now they take out all their frustrasions on everybody else. It would be her fault though. I can understand that. First, she has to tell how she feels and what happened to her. Otherwise, she will stay like this forever.
There is a lot of noise in the hallway. Alls I hear is cursing and yelling. It must be gettin' real deep. I'm gonna check it out. Wow! You hear that? It sounded like somebody just punched the wall. Got to go.
I was going downstairs to see whose there. TJ and Elise were talking. It looked like TJ had a little too much to drink at the bar because I could smell his breath from over here. He was telling all these jokes about gothic people and Elise flipped out. She started yelling.
"YOu don't know nothing about us. Don't say anything you don't know," she yelled.
" Shut the f*ck up," TJ screamed back.
Then TJ grabbed Elise's arm and threw her on the couch. TJ poured beer on ELise's head. Daniel was dumb founded as he looked and Elise get assaulted and Jill started to cry. I wounder why Jill was crying.
Jason finally ran over and pulled TJ off of her and threw him on the ground. Jason restrained TJ with all hsi force. Marisol took Elise to the bathroom. This was really crazy. They should kick TJ out because he was too violent.
I don't feel safe in this house anymore. TJ went out of controll. He really needs to leave. Number one, he put his hands on me. Number two, he poured that alcohol on me and and could have caused me to go blind. He sat there and pored it on me. Third, if he dosen't go, he could get drunk and assault me again. I have scrathces all over me.
He really needs counciling for his alcohol problem. He is very abusive. I cried the whole time after that. He literally hit me. I mean he didn't push me on the couch he hit me. It felt like he was going to rape me or something. They really need to get him out of this house. Until they do, I'm staying in here.
Too much going on in this house. I was scared when I came downstairs to see TJ pouring alcohol on Elise's head. I didn't know what to do. I never would have thought that he would do something like that. I was his friend too. Now, I don't want to be associated with a juvenile diliquent like him. I think Marisol councils people like him. When the game is over, he needs to seek her for advise and he needs to find a lwayer because I know Elise is going to file law-suit against him.
Yo, I don't remember nuttin from today. I just rember that Jason was hitting to wake up. But I know I was already awake but drunk. I don't even remember why I drank in the first place. I hope the show dosen't make me leave. It was a simple mistake. Anybody could have done it.
The chick ELise won't even come out her room. I hope I ain't do nuttin that bad. My mom raised me not to hit a female. If I hit her, I'm sorry, I ain't mean it.
I threw up in the bathroom. Childhood memories brought me back. My father use to beat me and my Mom when he would get drunk. He didn't stop beating me until I finally moved out. Now, my fiance beats me. I want to leave him but I can't because I love him. Oh my god, I probably won't even sleep tonight. (SOB)
I am better now to see that TJ is leaving. I am not scared anymore. If I see him again I won't be able to ever look at him. If I did I would see those crazy looking eyes of his. Good bye TJ.
On his way out the door, I shook TJ's hand. He was sad looking. He said the show wouldn't even that him get his final word. I told him we were still gonna stay friends after this is over. I told him that Marisol agreed to help him when the show was over. He smiled back and walked out the door. This game is really intense now.