Hazy Sight
As I write this
doubt pours throughout my entire being
when I look into your eyes I see it
what you feel for me
I always wanted
so real I can almost touch it
I want it to be true
so I can let go of my heart
and bathe in the emotion that comes forth
instead of silencing it
and freezing my heart to cold black depths
so I'm not hurt again
because I felt something that wasn't reflected back
even as I see it
no matter how much I know it
I'm not sure
I don't think I'm right
I want to wipe away my unseen tears
and tell you how I feel
I want to wrap my arms around you
and you wrap your arms around me
whispering your true feelings for me in my ear
I want what I need for once
something that makes me feel whole
for once I don't want to be met with resistance
I want to know it's ok to feel this way
that I don't have to be ashamed
and that you won't shame me for it
I'm stuck
I don't know what to do
I'm so afraid that I'm wrong
that it's all just a flight of fancy
if I make it known
will you tell me you feel the same?
or will you react with admonishment?
no one should be alone
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