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I still feel you
Today it's been two years since I've known that you've left the face of this earth. It still seems impossible that someone like you, with so much strength, love and understanding, was taken awaay. Sometimes I caught myself sitting in our chat room and waiting for you to come in. You never came, and after a while I realized that you would never come back, and that the only place I could see you was in my heart. Still, it seems so unreal. Two years haven't been enough to convince me that Go would take someone like you off this world, You were loved.�by so maqny and your life was important to so many. I can't understand why you had to die at such an early age. Yet, I am veryy thankful for the months I knew you. You taught me so much about life and about treating others, you made me be aware of all the small things and showed me ti look for the good in everything. You were the first who told me how special I was. That's one of the most valuable gifts I've ever received. Two years have passed and I don't think of you as often as I thought I would. I know I will never forget you, you are tucked deep inside my heart. What you taught me is a prt of me, and will always be. Knowing you made me a better person, in many aspects, and I think all in all, you can be almost proud of me. I miss you Mark. You were like a big brother to me, you always had the talent to make me feel special and protected. I know you know what special bond we had. You told Michael to take an exe on me, when you were in the hospital already. Now it's me trying to help him, and I hope you'll give me the strength to never leave his side, and give him the strength to believe in himself and carry on through all his hurting.
I believe that you are still here, in a different shape and form, but never totally gone. I feel you in a slight spring breeze, I see you in a blue sky with a few clouds that look like sheep, I hear you in any song that makes me want to sing along and enjoy life. Because without you, I wouldn't have noticed those things. |