It's amazing what some people can do with words. Michael posted a poem on the CC message board, for his girlfriend. It totally blew me away. It is beautiful to read when you don't know the story behind it, but when you do, it gets a touch of immortality. What he creates with words is wonderful, if I even may judge that.
Today was a pretty good day. I went home from school today after the first two periods, officially I felt sick and had a headache, unofficially I was sick of school and didn't see any meaning in it. Everyone else felt the same way and instead of the stupid remarks I usually get, I got 'good idea', and 'that's right to do'. Surprised me, in a positive way. When I was about to leave, I saw my PE teacher standing in the hall talking to two of my classmates, but I managed to sneak out of the building before she saw me. My PE teacher hasn't seen me in PE for weeks because I skip it, and I didn't want to get into a conversation with her about that. I've always handed in excuses, so she should be happy. It doesn't matter that it is me who signs them, I am 18 after all. Even if they told me to hand in an excuse from my doctor that I can't, of course, I wouldn't go to PE. I don't care, there's no need to do something against my will. Especially when it's something meaningless as PE.
I went into town and got two CD's for James, finally. I should have gotten them for over two weeks but I always told myselfI'd do it tomorrow. Well, now I finally got them, and I hope to get the package ready tomorrow. I still have to write a letter to go with it. It's weird to write a letter to James, I've never done that. I've always only talked to him. It's really weird, I don't want to bore him either. I'll try and see, I suppose that's best. It can't turn out all that bad in the end.
I also got myself two new shirts. I knew I shouldn't have, I should have saved the money, but I couldn't help myself. They weren't very cheap, more than I'd usually spend on a shirt, and I didn't really need any new clothes either. My cupboards is way too full already. I just felt like if I needed something new, so well, I bought them. Although I know I should actually save money. Yes I am aware of that.
It was a beautiful day, it was warm and the sun was shining. It felt good to feel the warm sun on my skin. My dad, my brother and I went grocery shopping, I just love driving in the car!! With that perfect weather anyway. The wind was blowing through my dad's window right into my face, I could see the clouds when I looked up, there was a good song on the radio that my brother turned up real loud, and it felt almost like in California. I can imagine things very well, I closed my eyes and kept telling myself we were on a road at the coast somewhere in California, I kept telling myself little details until I could really see it in front of my eyes. I should have kept my eyes close, I was in Germany when I opened them. Yet, being able to imagine something real hard is something wonderful.
I met Manu at the grocery store, I hadn't seen him there in weeks. When there were no customers waiting in line he started a conversation with me, which soon ended with someone needing to be served. Yet, it was really nice to see him again and to talk to him. Manu's an extremely nice guy, very friendly and he's got a good sense of humor. I like that. He used to work in a department near mine, so sometimes we met at the trash can (the really huge one), or on the way there. He smoked a cigarette while we were talking about the weekend, whatever, work, school. That was always nice. I hope he'll switch departments again soon, where works at the moment he's not responsible for the trash. Bah! I also say Mister Ay and Ugur. Just waved at them because my dad had made a total disaster out of it the last time I made him wait a bit because I wanted to talk to Erhan.
Today was such a beautiful day. It makes me think that every day would be if I didn't go to school. I've been thinking about dropping out until summer, when I start at the other school anyway. It's a nice thought and seems like a pretty good idea, I could spend my time more worthwhile than sitting in school. It's to relevant if I'm there or not anymore anyway, I got accepted to the other school already and my grades for the rest of the school year are so far from being important and from mattering. But my parents would probably freak out if I told them about what I've been thinking, they'd tell me not to be so lazy and go to school, no matter if it still is important or not.
So, now I'm sitting here listening to Lifehouse, and quite happy with my life.
