March 30th 2001

Wow, unbelievable.. I have had so much to do today and I can't believe it's almost 10 again and that soon it will be time to go to bed just to get up again six hours later. I went grocery shopping this afternoon, of course I had to walk. I had two heavy bags and an extremely heavy backpack to carry so it was not even funny. It got worse when it started raining. But I suppose it was worth it, I met Muhic (whose real name is Armin, as I found out today), Mehmet, and Petra. Especially with Armin I had a quite long and nice conversation, he seems to have a ood sense of humor and smiles a lot. It was nice. When talking to Mehmet, you notice that he's five years older than him. They are two quite different people and I appreciate each of them. They ave a special way of talking to me, and they always manage to take me seriously. Yep. Plectra was quite stressed out about Nicole, the lazy trainee that does nothing but what she pleases. I talked to her took for a while but somehow, it was different. It's probably just me who finds it nicer to talk to 20 and a 25 year old, good looking young man. Geez who could deny that.
I also met Urdu at the check out, who explained me for quite a while how to pronounce and to write his first name, which is Turkish. I can't help it, I throughout enjoyed shopping today. I like the people who work there, I really do. I'd probably also work there for free because I can work with them and have them around. It's more fun and a kind of social contacts than work, for me.

I've been feeling so good today, I wore my favorite pants today, my favorite sweater, it didn't rain this morning and my hair looked the way I wanted it to. I felt totally complete, I felt totally like myself. The way I felt today, I hadn't felt like that for a very very very long time. And I hope it will stay that way. I'm being 100% me now, and it makes me happy.

I can't seem to gather my thoughts today and write an entry that consists of more than babbling. I think I need to get used to that all. Argh.

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