March 9th 2001

Lisa sent me a message earlier telling me that Michael is doing a bit better, he started responding to voice and touch, which is a good sign. She said if we are lucky we'll have him back soon. Honestly, I thought he was recovering better. I didn't know it had been as dangerous for his life as it had obviously been. Yet, knowing that Michael has been on his way to getting better makes me feel good. I was very glad when I'd read Lisa's message, his suicide attempt has kept me thinking a lot the past week, and it still does. It must have been so close to his death. I was totally shocked knowing that he'd attempted suicide, and I knew it was prevented, but I didn't know that it was almost too late..

I came home from work at hour ago, I worked 5pm till 8pm. Three hours are ok, and my chef was downstairs all the time, so I didn't have a whole lot to do. She asked me when I'd want my six weeks of this year. So far, I have decided on three weeks in April, for my USA trip, and a week in the end of August. That's all, so far, the rest will be taken as I need it. My boss was in a good mood and smiled, she is a really nice person and very friendly, usually. Just don't catch her in a bad mood. Anyway, also saw Kenan again today. He just looks damn good wearing a black sweater with a white blouse under it, and his dark skin. Wow. Nicole will work with me upstairs until April, and I hope Kenan will work be her substitute once she is gone again. I used to work with him over half a year, we got along pretty well and I always liked having him around. He's only a few years older and still seems to know what's going on. And, he's not so strict. Yet, it would be even better if Muhic would work upstairs.
Something really stupid happened to me today, I poured acid over my staff shirt and my pants. I carried a car battery, and when I'd put it onto the shelf, I saw a huge spot on my staff shirt, and also on my pants. Then I realized that the car battery hadn't been closed properly, but I wasn't sure if it was a spot of water or acid. I forgot about it, but felt on my skin that it must have been acid. When I came home and changed clothes, I saw a huge whole in my pants where the spot had been. During work, my shirt had been over it, so I hadn't seen it earlier. I was very surprised and looked at my hands, but my skin was almost totally ok. My staff shirt doesn't have any holes, only my pants. That's really unfair, I'd rather have holes in my staff shirt because I'd get a new ones for free. I won't get new pants for free.*sigh* At least I can still wear them to work because the staff shirt is long enough to cover the holes. Yet, I'm a bit sad about it, these pants are some I bought in the US.:( By the way, I checked the web site of the store where I wanted to get my clothes two weeks ago but they hadn't gotten them stocked yet. Obviously, now they have them, at least some of them. I'm really glad about that, although one of the shirts I wanted still is missing. But I'll just call tomorrow and ask, maybe they just don't have it in their online store.

Man..somehow I feel like if I'm really bad at writing a half way decent journal entry. Maybe because I just don't have anything extreme, no extreme feelings at the moment. Things have been going very regular and without any major problems the past few days. I'm nto sure if I like that yet, as stupid as that may sound..

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