February 5th 2001

Flo called me last night at 6.45pm if I wanted to come along see a movie at 8.15pm. It was slmost too spontanous since I wasn't sure if my dad would pick me up at 11pm and it is not too safe walking alone at that time. My parents weren't home so I decided to give it a try, I could always take a taxi home. Michael came along too, and we had a pretty good time. We saw the new movie with Liz Hurley, don't ask me about the original title though. It's a good movie, very funny, and it was worth going. My main reasons for going was merely the movie than spending time with Flo and Michael. Both of them are good friends and we spend not much time together because both have to work a lot at their parents's store. Having them around is always nice, especially Michael's got a great sense of humor. Flo is an all around nice person, a little slow sometimes, but definitely a good friend.

I got the result of my Economy test today, for which reason ever my result is quite low. I had a quite good feeling about it and was very surprised. I wrote a very long and detailed argumentation and got 0,5 out of 3 points. I don't get that, it was a really godo argumentation with good explanations that actually make sense, and everything is built up just great. I'm proud of my piece of work, even when the grade sucks. I don't deserve it, really. The problem is, I don't know what I got the 0,5 points for. In an argumentation of one and a half page there is not a single thing that shows that she rad it, only at the bottom of it there's the '0,5 / 3'. Great, and what am I to do with that?? Argh, stupid person. But compared to my Chemistry teacher, she's not even worth fighting with.

My History report went very well today, I always found the right words, spoke freely and all in all made a good impression I think. It was actually the first time I enjoyed giving a report, it was a nice topic that interested me and it was easy to talk about. The topic was farmers in the 12th and 13th century, their life and the changes of their life style during those two centuries. I like History a lot, and I did enjoy talking about it. I will be majoring in History next year, and I do have a good feeling about it.

I should have called my boss today and told her that I'd not be able to hand in an excuse for the day, almost four weeks ago, when I was 'sick'. I feel a little bad about it and don't want to make up any excuses, so I better don't call her. I know that's not correct, at least not totally. But I am a little ashamed, and I don't want to tell her the truth, and don't want to lie to her either. But oh well, I don't think I'll call.

Saskia has been so annoying lately, I know she'll want to spend the break tomorrow with me again, she'll just assume that I won't mind. I will tell her that I do mind, and if she doesn't get it, I'll tell her a lot more. I'm fed up with her, I really don't want to keep this going.. I do something, and then she joins me. Last week Jos�, Saskia and I had lunch together, Saskia had joined us without even having the slightest idea that she might be not liked too much to be with us (yes I'm mean), and kept telling us the silliest things neitehr of us was interested in anyway. She mentioned that she couldn't be alone, that she always needed someone around her. But Saskia didn't say it like if she'd realized that that is not necessarily a good thing. Just that it is normal. I don't know, I don't even know why I let this upset me so much. She's not worth it. Tomorrow I'll let her know what's been on my mind, there will be rumours spread behind my back again, but who cares. Not me.

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