the next life





I thought I might use a part of my old bio within here, my new one. That was when I realized that I couldn't. My old bio was written three months ago, when I was working on opening my first personal site. But, I have changed, and things aren't anymore the way they were. Look at something from a different point and other things will seem important to you.

My name still is Christina. I am three months older but still 18 years old. I like to think that I am a not very complicated person, when I think of me I think of someone who is easy to have around because she speaks her mind. She doesn't make turns and when talking to her, you always know what she thinks of you at the moment.

I am honest, to myself and with that, to everyone else. It used to be a habit of mine to lie to keep myself out of trouble. I have realized how wrong it is to be not honest about what you feel and think because you mustn't hide your personality, it's what sets you apart from everyone else.
I look at my life differently now. Not long ago I read the slogan 'My Life My World', a CD title if I remember right. It's become my motto now, it includes pretty much everything I want in life: I don't want to think about what others think of me, I want to live my life for myself, with everything that I do and think to be myself. I want to live a life on my own, for myself. It's very likely that I sound a bit selfish here, maybe I am just that when it comes down to it. But what I am trying to say is that I try to put value into every day of my life, so that in the end, I can talk about my life and hold my head up.
I consider myself a free person. It was once that I complained about not being able to be free, to be tied in rules society sets up in front of me to censor me, or the person I am, in any way. I am free now, I look at the sky and see the clouds move and feel the grass under my arms that are crossed behind my head. Because I'm free.
So much about my personality, which I think is described to a certain extend with that.

I currently attend grade 11 but won't graduate from that school. After this grade, I will switch schools. It was my own decision, on the one hand, on the other hand it was made because I wasn't sure of what to do with my life. I will have classes one week and work in some social institutions the other week, and that will take turns. I am looking forward to working, it seems more senseful and meaningful than going to school only. I highly dislike th atmosphere at school and don't like everyone trying to compete with others, get better grades, be more successful. I don't like the idea of what life is all about that is taught there.

I live with my family, which consists of my parents, my brother, and our cat. I have a certain feeling of belonging here, I love my family more than life and although they can't give me the feeling of being protected (which is my fault), I know where my roots are. My brother is two years younger than me, a wonderful friend and someone who makes sure I know where I'm standing.
I don't have a boyfriend, which doesn't make me sad or makes me feel less complete. Actually, I don't see anything like a boyfriend missing in my life right now. Yet, I don't know what will be in the next moment. I'm definitely not one of those that are desperate looking. I enjoy my freedom and if someone comes along, I will know.

I spend a lot of my freetime on the computer, depending on if I have sites to finish. Also, I enjoy writing a lot. In the future I will dedicate more time to books, although I really like reading, I have never read anything by Speakspeare or Edgar Allen Poe, which I want to do. Moreover, I would like to work at an animal asylum eventually and go more often bikeriding. Another thing I want to fit in the near future is getting my car license. It's been four months since I've been 18 and it's about time.

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